so long never blog haha... lazy to blog lately though

nothing much had happened...
this christmas felt kinda weird. most probably due to all the lack of sleep and falling sick...
didn't even felt like celebrating it this year.

don't even have present sadly haha...
but christmas is never about gifts taken but it's all about gifts given...
sorry guys didn't get anything for you current amount of money + bank in total is like 3.98... pathetic haha...

lost my wallet and found it luckily but all of my money are gone expectedly...

went jamming on sunday and it was all screwed up... but somehow we did have fun next jamming i must have a better constant beat!!!
haha

lately life hadn't been going out how the way i hope it'll be but somehow i kinda like the way it goes.
shouldn't be this way but don't know what's happening inside. it felt like as if i want to feel the pain in life. and the more it comes the more i want more. am i crazy o.O haha i don't know

another thing will be i had been missing my granny recently. though she's not there anymore for almost 2 years now, at times i'm just hoping that she was here at least nagging at me. but of cause i know you're doing well up there and it must be breaking your heart looking at me down here doing all these stupid and meaningless stuff.

lastly will be mom, had a quarrel with her not long ago. now that she doesn't gives me money nor am i really wanting to listen to what she says, our relationship is getting worse and day by day i'm starting to lose out in money. soon i'm going to be broke, or you can that i'm broke now (with just less then 5 bucks to use to survive)

haiz...

My Future
earn my first million by age 30
first child by age 25
get married by age 23
get my own house by 23
start my first shop(online/retail) at age of 21
get my first car at age 20