saturday was fun haha...
went to buy present for 3 friends haha... won't say who lalala
then went to service haha...
gosh i want to buy that LACOSTE shirt which cost $60 only!
should i should i not... hmmmm....

oh ya! I MADE A NWE FRIEND TODAY...
KEVINA...i didn't take a photo with her... but ya she's the one beside CUI~ wen...



went service haha... OH
WOON PLEASE GET WELL SOON... PHYSICALLY AND SPRITUALLY

reach home at 11 and i am super tired haha...
slept at 12! do you BELIEVE IT!
I SLEPT AT 12!

haha... today was kinda boring though...
was SUPPOSED to go bring daryl go swim & go down to KAKI BUKIT to find something for the night walk but...
sis don't want to bring daryl go SWIM + it look like it's gonna rain...
jose had some TUMMY PROBLEM then never go to kaki bukit...

thus i stayed at home and watch F1...
the most saded person in F1 this Grand Prix will be Felipe Massa haha... due to his stupid crew who didn't take out the fuel thingy he got into 13th place
while Fernando Alonso won his 20th Grand Prix...

personally i'm hoping Massa or Hamilton to win... haha but nvm...

GRATS ALONSO WHO HAS THE COMBINATION NAME OF FERNANDO TORRES & XABI ALONSO TO WIN HIS 20TH GRAND PRIX... AND LIVERPOOL IS GOING TO WIN HER 18 YEARS OLD OF WAITING OF BEING THE EPL CHAMPION

SORRY XUEPING SORRY I NEVER LINK YOU SORRY

CG today haha... total strength 4 person
haha well it's pretty good i'd say though we didn't do anything much we had a great time together talking and having fun haha..

went off to JAMMING after that
haha it SUCKS but fun haha...
so paiseh haha... we played like shit
actually i had a big problem with my timing as normal haha...
well at least drumming really helped me in my timing...
was worse then what they saw today haha...

a video of us playing AMITABHA haha


haha try to see me there if you can haha... i'm playing the DRUMS haha

we went to prata after that haha... but before that i bought a 2L bottle of milk!
haha want to grow FATTER!
i'm TOO SKINNY!

STUPID COMPUTER WHY YOU SO LAGGY! WEREN'T YOU SUPPOSE TO BE A HIGH PERFORMANCE LAPTOP 2 YEARS AGO?

SORRY guanjie... i overslept if you need help do tell me again SORRY!

today woke up at 2pm... gosh... gonna really learn to sleep early man!
watched anime and went to find kok to go to nel cg together
he was LATE as normal but it's alright since it's not really his fault
reach there at around 5 which was suppose to start at 430...
left early at 6 to go and celebrate AHMA's birthday

went to LINGZHI restaurant at some place i forgot the name haha...
then went over to QUEENSTOWN (her house) an had a small chit chat session with them...
then went home...
BUGGED my dad to give me money to buy pants haha...
all my jeans are bought by him from CHINA...(cheapo product)
and 90% of them are spoilt -.-

went home to practice on the songs for jamming
and gosh is DARE YOU TO MOVE hard...
can't figure out the bridge... so maybe tomorrow i'll just anyhow wack haha :P

HAPPY 72nd BIRTHDAY AHMA!

i'm supposed to have a meeting at 12pm haha... but i reach at 3pm gosh...
pretty nice in the meeting though. we talked about what we could do and things that is going to change in the group...
gonna start to change myself fast. i don't wanna stop myself in this cycle of stupidity haha...

then went to kokleng's house waiting for him to bathe and go buy stuff(NOT SHOPPING BUT JUST BUYING)...
i bought myself wax and facial wash... i used up mine months ago but was lazy to buy atnd mom is complaining haha...

something SHOCKING happened!
today was JOSEPHINE'S BIRTHDAY and non of us remembered
we went all the way down to KOVAN to celebrate with HER
the guys that were there are
KOKLENG, ZEJUN,QIULIAN, JIAN WEN(jose friend),BETTY(jose friend), JIASHEN(FATTY PIGGY) and me
treated her to dinner. though i'm getting poor but just treat ba haha...

then they came to my house to choose the songs for jamming
and they are
dare you to move - switchfoot
hossanna - hillsong united
inside outside - delirious
mighty to save - hillsongs
my future decided - hillsongs
haha HOPE i can play them well

then we went supper and went home
they forgot to drink my VODKA haha
means i'll have more for MYSELF muahaha

HAPPY BIRTHDAY 19TH JOSE - FISHY- NEMOEY- TURTLEY - PHINE

woo today wanted to have a date with WOON hahaha....
GAY! nevermind...
my sis tag along and we went to find JOB!
went to amk and there' simply NO HOPE to find a job there...
only the one that is walking around aimlessly(saying me)

haha got back my lameness today yeah! gonna lame the world out of me...
then we went to marina square to cut hair(supposedly ONLY)
but we went to Club Marc and gosh their stuff are nice! and is currently having a 50% discount
So those who are looking for stuff Do Go There And Take A Look...
went zara but nothing amuse me...
went to lacoste and woah it's ex haha... ran out of the shop(not practically but try to imagine it if you want YOURSELF!)
then next is PUMA haha... Just got a Puma watch a few days ago and guess what...
i'm starting to love puma even more...
got a polo tee there for $89... gosh i'm gonna be such a good boy from now on...
this is the shirt hahathen went to cut hair which cost 28 per person haha... gosh... used over 100 just today like that i'm going BROKE!
if any kind soul who would love to give money to the poor... here is one living at 229 serangoon ave 4 #09-39
thanks~!
haha... this is my hairstyle(the hairstylish helped me to do it but i'm gonna change abit so i'll not look so strange for the time being haha)
gosh i look more kiddy then the past... but who cares haha...
btw i'm wearing my new shirt wee~ haha

oh went to interview at KBox too...
6 bucks per hour...
hope i can get in haha...

then went to HOPE SEM gosh it's tiring...
the teaching is good but theres so much to listen to...
gosh i'll faint and there's 5 memory scripture to go for...

after that went to clarke quay to find my sis...
we wanted to go clubbing...
but her stupid friend dragged so long till my sis is damn pissed...
thus she went to find her other friends at GOLDEN MILE! GOSH!
there's a club there?! and it's thai... haha
i didn't go with her...
it sound so strange and haha... i don't even dare to go into that place again..
stink and scary ew!

thus here i am blogging...

ANYONE GOING CLUBBING JIO ME PLEASE I'M DESPERATE TO KNOW HOW'S IT'S LIKE... STRANGE ME

yeah!
updated my laptop today and STUNED my songs can't be played!
shocking!
deleted the update and tada i can listen to my songs again...
never more relieved then this haha...

something that i want to change :
be glad with what i have a verse that said this.
>>Mark 4 : 25 >> whoever has will be given more; whoever does not have, even what he has will be taken from him.
why so? if you don't have anything how do God take them away...
well(answering myself) first you must know what you have, then God can use you in what you have and give you even more. but if you don't even know what you have and yet always look at what you don't have, how can God use you in what you have when you don't even want to use what you have and always look at what you don't have? thus sooner it's not God who want to take it away from you. but it's you who chose to give it away to be wasted.
LOOK AT WHAT YOU HAVE!! IF YOU CAN'T FIND LOOK FURTHER AND MORE POSITIVELY AND YOU'LL FIND THEM... FOR SURE!

another nice song that i'd reconmend

Lenny Leblanc : Beans and Rice

God speaks in the land by the sea
Somehow He feels closer to me
And as I watch the little children play
My heart says I want to stay

I love the beans and rice
And the people are so nice
With the coconut trees
Swaying in the summer wind
When the raindrops fall
And the river rise so tall
It's like a little bit of Heaven coming down

hadn't been out today haha...
was wondering... what had i been doing lately...
what was my motive and why am i doing things that i did haha...

wanted to do some reflection
and haha.. gonna kick this stupid negativity out of me haha DAMN YOU GET OUT! haha...
thanks xiaoji! for the care and concern... really needed those haha...
guess i always seek for attention but forgot to give others the attention that they need haa...
sorry guys/gals for the trouble and irritating and insensitive words i've said sorry

yeah! today finally found the watch that makes me want to buy...
found it at... Centerpoint CityChain... bought a puma watch haha... i find it nice... at least i find it haha...














went to service and yes the sermon is very good ^^ it do helped me in motivating me to want to study haha...
went to have dinner and celebrated miao xin's birthday haha... how nice it's the same date as daryl
OH! HAPPYBIRTHDAY DARYL,MIAOXIN & HUIJUN!
haha abit late but haha... yeah...
went to find june with vincent, xue, jose and samuel at boat quay... haha felt abit funny but nevermind haha..
then went back to serangoon with jose while the rest went to find chulee. we chatted for quite long haha... from bus to mac donalds to her house... all the way till 4am... woah... but thanks jose... at least you tried to help me...
she told me about what i can do to not sent wrong signal to girls haha... in which i found out that i had been doing unknowingly... gosh...

ANYONE HAS A FLEXIBLE PART-TIME JOB THAT YOU CAN INTRO TO ME PLEASE TELL ME.. thanks

a very nice song! haha... well it helped me somehow

Switchfoot - Meant To Live

Fumbling his confidence
And wondering why the world has passed him by
Hoping that he's made for more than arguments,
And failed attempts to fly.
Fly.

We were meant to live for so much more
have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside
Somewhere we live inside
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside

Dreaming about Providence
And whether mice or men have second tries
Maybe we've been livin with our eyes half open
Maybe we're bent and broken. Broken


We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside
Somewhere we live inside
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside

We want more than this world's got to offer
We want more than this world's got to offer
We want more than the wars of our fathers
And everything inside screams for second life

Yeahhh!

We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
We were meant to live
We were meant to live

lets talk about today...

gonna apologise to the guys first why i was so quiet just now... will explain in this post...
i was thinking... why do i want to change?
why do i seek to be a better person?
why do i always have so much pride in me that i don't want to show how weak i really am?

kinda childish but at least i've set clear my motive...
quiet but think through quite a lot of stuff...
i don't wanna hide away anymore... god... how far can i hide...
it's so true when you said. the more you want to hide things behind close doors the more you'll show what is happening inside.
i prayed and asked god about this at least...
then this came to me...
for god so loved the world he gave his one and only son for those who are willing to humble themself down that you'll let him mould you.
no matter how much i force myself to change... if i will to never unerstand why should i humble down... pride will be able to find so much loop holes to come in and destroy me...

Sorry lord... i know that i had been running away from you for so long now...
giving myself this thing call excuse that hide myself from being humble enough to come to you and seek you for help...
playing tough in front of you and trying to use my own stupid and useless ways to hide myself...

i tried to be strong but i'm weak... without you how far can i run...
for those who are reading this and isn't a believer... i'll say this...
i don't want to hide myself from serving anymore... running away from my MEETINGS(in which is my CareGroup Meet) is useless... i wanna serve with the team together the team that i've seen them changed... the team that have grow from a useless bunch of freaks to a group who is willing to do something... you can hide but how far can you run? i tried to run i tried to hide... but the more i does so... the more i'm draining myself out...

TO A FRIEND :
i will not even know if you are seeing this or not but i'd just say...
you had been a great friend all along... but when time flies... it's getting more and more obvious now...
you said that you treats me as a friend.... if you mean it then please... don't show me that you're just treating me as a freak anymore... i'd guess i hope you won't know who you are... but if you do... i'm just saying... i'm tired of the neglection that i felt...

yesterday was fun... haha

went out to find mom and had lunch with her haha...
she shared to me her problems in which how she wants to bring the family together but how hard she tried and how bad it backfired back...
then went on to buy daryl's present haha... she bought him a golden neckless haha pretty cute but haha i wonder will he like it? hmmm... well he's too young haha
bought a liverpool new home jersey for myself and went to had dinner with my uncle and father...
they ate i was kinda full but i ate abit too haha...
then got home and was waiting for that indian to meet him...
but in the end he told me no need le...
felt so shag wanted to sleep but waited for him la haha T.T... nevermind haha...
so he said to meet before cg but now i'm feeling very sick... so i might not go well i'll tell him later if he reply me on msn or give me a return call haha... else i'd call him by 1am...

back to today haha...
went to take pay with some of the dell friends...
those who were with us...
3 category i created for them haha
rare... roy and dickson
uncommon... xiaoji and huijun
common... ivan, cuiwen, soomui, ziyan and yiai...
there is also another guy who i didn't really get to know him haha... he's from acer by the way...
and also a girl who i don't know haha... she bought a MP3 at simlim too haha...
well for myself i wanted to get a watch but didn't find any of them... it's either they are too expensive or haha... not nice... so must i get expensive stuff... haha i don't think so! haha so i'd look around more soon i guess haha...
well my pay is $306 in which i think i could have done better!
well after that we went to look around bugis street or you can say the girls... haha but well we're just there to look at them looking for their stuff haha...
went to had dessert after that... didn't took any photo but it's nice! haha gosh i will miss it i think at least haha...
soon after that we went to play pool haha...
my body starts to tell me that it can't work for much longer... well this is where i start to get sick and feel uneasy

SORRY GUYS! for the worry and stuff... and + my attitude just now was pretty bad sorry...
on our way out haha... i NOSE BLEED!! haha wow! first time in my life that i know of i nose bleed! haha cool! felt like... hahaha... running nose...
i was shocked when everyone started crowding me like gosh he's gonna die! haha
but i know that you guys cared ^^ thanks haha...

gosh i haven't choose my song! haha gonna choose it now haha

haha today finally went to eunos to know about the company
and it sucks
selling some strange health product which is like what woon told me haha thus i'd not be going to answer or reply that person le haha... oops XD

came back and i fall asleep haha so tired T.T
then went over to indian's house to had a meeting on the 'soon to come' NP outing haha....
the plan is out but i won't be saying much about it first haha...

and guess what! PAYDAY IS HERE
haha!
but i don't wanna go alone so i'm thinking of going with some of the guys...
but they are like going in 3 different days! which one should i go hm... or should i go to all... maybe i can get 3 times ... wishful thoughts haha

but ahh when should i go? T.T

today was kinda boring to start with.
woke up at 1pm was thinking of going for the job interview but i'm lazy... damn
called the person that i had something on then went online and talk(my something on)
talk for a while and had the sudden urge to listen to jazz haha...
downloaded quite an amount of micheal buble songs... he's like the only jazz singer i know gosh...

had a nice chat online with yiai today... somehow learnt something from her though it might be just a chat but learning can always take place everytime in which i'd like to learn more of what i can change in and be a better man haha...

while downloading guanjie came by my house and had a pretty nice chat with him...
i'd say he has changed alot since secondary school but will not elaborate here else this post is gonna be super long...
after downloading we went to parklane to play pool and lan....
muahaha i owned him but that's not important... what's important is we could spend some time and talk about more serious stuff which i didn't really do before with him...
came back to serangoon at 12+ went to mac and had a seat and started chatting again haha...

woah am i tired now haha... but don't think i'd be sleeping anytime soon haha...

sign off,
[JoB]ZiJiE

haha finally about lately

i had been emo-ing about stuff that's happening around me or i'd say in me
maybe because i had been wanting to get relationship which is what the church will discourage which made me pretty selfishly fed-up

a few person i want to thank for helping me through

xueping - something she told me seriously struck me
(Q: how do you know you're ready for relationship
A: When you ain't thinking of getting into one)

yiai - the way her relationship could last for 3 and a half year touched me into understanding about relationship and also it really shows me that the type of relationship i had been seeking is able to be found since it's the type of relationship she is in now. which assured me that i shouldn't rush into any quick conclusion and stuff

cuiwen - i want to thank her alot for being there to listen to me and stuff. sharing to me her honest opinion about stuff and giving me advices though she thinks that she didn't but i will say YOU DID!

evaine aka strawberry aka soomui - thanks for being a listener too haha thanks i don't know what to say but just many thanks for being there to listen my boring words haha

jiamin - haha something she told me that helped me to overcome this too
(if you are looking for a life-partner going into a relationship with her now will surely not make her your wife since we're still young but if you keep it till later then won't the chance be higher?) how true at least by what i've seen in my friends around me and my family

ISAAC ANG KOK LENG AH NEH INDIAN WORKER GOING TO BANGALADASH TO START CHURCH IN THE FUTURE - muahaha long name but i want to thank him for being so patience towards me though lately i hadn't been really saying much positive stuff to him and had been giving him alot of trouble thank you mr... super long name guy muahaha

augustine - i wanna thank you for the stuff you told me and that something for you don't worry for us yea ^^ i promise you! i will be a history maker here to help around. god's prophesy isn't going to break down but this marks the dawn of something new and something is going to happen. put your trust in me while i will bring NP up towards a new level of leadership and new level of god's servents into the world to come

and finally the decision i've made : i'd not be going to FCBC le. i'm gonna stay in Hope and stay in NP for i've made a promise... not going to think so much about rls since what for do i need when god too said this do not worry about what you wear or what you eat or what is going to happen tomorrow. though to some of my non-believer friends they will not understand this but i'd say even if you're not a christian : don't worry so much in life cause it'd just harm yourself life isn't hard to live it's how you see it. if you see it in a bad way you'll live your life as bad as you see it is. but if you see in positively, you can always smile and say life is good... it's human nature to look negative but it's always so much better to look at the positive side of life that everyone has. you might not see it now but trust me you'll see it if you find it.
if you truely seek something you'll find it.

a small post about HONGKONG Leadership Conference

for those who didn't know i was in hongkong for a conference(sound so big sia) with hope church internationally during 3rd to 8th of september.

What I Miss :
I MISS MY DELL FRIENDS
i miss my bed and coco
i miss chicken rice and prata

What Impressed Me:
canto... i can never understand a single word
ocean park... the dolphins are so cool and cute
shopping... stuff are cheap and nice unlike singapore
the worship... it's so special worshiping in hongkong and cantonese
Hope London... a place i'll always want to go and impact
Hope Australia(forgot which state)... i like the way they worship god

What I've Learnt:
The teaching there were about Indigneous church
Mainly about how to be a missionary of creating a church for the local and not for yourself
about how we bring one another up even when you're oversea

What's Bothering Me:
what can i do to really bring god into OUR GROUP(not NP but the members first)
what is the meaning of HISTORY MAKER
should i go over to FCBC to help my parents

haha yay gonna blog about my work first haha...

was working at COMEX show during 28-31 of august...
well it was fun seriously except serving those irritating customer.
i made a total of 18 friends there, all my colleague of cause.

something about my work:
-i'm selling dell laptops at a booth sharing space with Acer and HP.
-my pay is 50 + commision.

something i love about my job :
- my colleague haha will elaborate about that later
- my boss
- the fun customer

something i hate about my job:
- indian customer's saliva

haha why i love my colleague haha... here goes
they are fun people who are matured in their own special ways
they are very friendly with one another and patience too^^
they will be fully willing to help you and give you tips in stuff too haha

why i love my boss haha
he's serious in work i'd say but when it comes to play he is really serious in playing too haha(heard at least)

why i hate indian customer's saliva
well they will like always ask for free gift with their saliva flying in here and there in which i'd say it'sVERY irritating haha...
but i'd understand why they will ask for such things too. since they came here to work they hardly has the money to support themself more about getting the laptop at around 1k-2.4k thus of cause they would hope for the lowest price and most gift as possible.

haha i'd say something about my colleagues too haha

this is the list of their name alphebatically
anderson, colin, cuiwen, dickson, huijun, ivan, jason(boss), mark, marvin, pei hong, roy, shannon, soomui aka evaine, xiaoji, yiai, yvvone, ziyan

and somethings about them

anderson : he's a guy who look abit older then his age but he's a guy who is willing to help you as long as you ask him. few words to say about him will be kind and mature man

colin : haha he has the ahbeng look but he's a good friend i must say haha hope to know him more in the future

cuiwen : a person with good leadership skill in which i'd say the leader of our group when we get out together. might be abit rar rar but overally she's a kinda and fun person to stick with

dickson : first person to speak to me haha, he's a fun person to be with fun to talk to and easy to talk to too. he'd be a very good friend i'd say seriously! XD

huijun : she's pretty rar rar haha... though she might worry alot easily but she like to make friend with you. looked sporty which is pretty clear that she's a person who like to play sport and a person who like to have fun and staying outdoor(if i'm wrong XD sorry)

ivan : ivan is a very clever person i'd say. knowing alot of stuff that we don't know. he like to have fun too like to crack jokes around haha which i'd say lighten up everyone's life in a way or another of casue haha

jason : haha my boss! haha a person who can't multi task very well, but he'd like to make sure that everyone is doing well but will easily create busyness himself.

mark : a pretty quiet guy didn't really get to talk to him much but for sure it seems taht he can surly make a good friend haha

marvin : a handsome young kid who will get alot of friend i'd guess haha... he's funny person though most of the time he's quiet too haha yeap ^^

peihong : i shall not say that much about her since i don't really get to talk to her much but one thing about her is her english is good!

roy : a very clever person in doing business haha he can do stuff fast and do it easily

shannon : haha a guy who can make a good friend surely! like to talk to people much of cause

soomui : people always comment on her height, but she'a person who is quiet a good listener i'd say haha... though she was sick the whole show but she's willing to listen to you and talk to you when you need company ^^

xiaoji : haha a quiet guy i'd say haha, he would want to play with us too of cause haha

yiai : haha she felt like a sister to me in which i'd say she's the first person other then my blood sisters who made me feel this way in which i'd really hope that i can get to know her more in the days to come and that haha... maybe hope that she'd be the first person to be my gan jie haha.

yvvone : a clever person i'd say, able to talk to you around of cause but though at times she might do things that you won't understand but i'd say she will be a good friend in time to come of cause

ziyan : yiai's sister. she's quiet but will talk to you when you start a conversation with her of cause haha

a photo of everyone will be uploaded soon haha i don't have it in my laptop it's in my HDD

My Future
earn my first million by age 30
first child by age 25
get married by age 23
get my own house by 23
start my first shop(online/retail) at age of 21
get my first car at age 20