today was tireding but fun... unlike past few days... haha

went to help out the camp musicians by doing MM for them...
haha
lightings, PPT and projector... haha... we have 2 projectors but only able to use one haha...

we(kokleng and I) reached first at golden mile haha... cause we're like overslept and didn't went to nexus haha... nevermind that...
while preparing... jovin taught ben and i strokes haha... and how to hold the drum sticks... i must say... there's more then meet the eye...

we prepared abit of here and there... got my fingers cramped by the table... OUCH... talking about fingers haha.... i was at KL(kok leng)'s house before going to golden mile... and my phone slip into his couch... i don't know how or why there is a hole there... and it took us quite sometime to get it back out... haiz... how i wish i didn't get it out(so that i can change phone)... taking it out means sticking my hand into a near impossible reachable small hole... haha... thank god for creating me with small hands....

the practice was real cool... especially dinner break haha... cause i got to play the drums when non of the drummers is in the hall hahahahaha! i got hooked up soon after haha... then i forgot to let ben play >.<>.<

then they came back and practice their songs... was nice... can't say what songs haha... but was nice and cool... the admosphere is there haha... and it was ministering haha.... and finally a time when i feel needed and important after 2 weeks of meaningless rehearsal of a 100% useless script.... ok... i'm angry of the script but nevermind... i don't wanna talk about it... just get it done and over with... zao wan zao hao(early finish early happy*direct translation)... but today i felt useful! though my things are like nothing as before... but i felt needed... the people really shares to you about your importance... every single person felt that...

though i'm just playing PPT, Projector & Lights... i felt fun... and i'm so sure that this camp... it'll be a history maker in my life...

confused, tired, searching... these are the words that best describe my life lately...

not sure who will be reading this or what... but ya just spining of thoughts.... hope not emotions

really wanna get back to god... so many times i feel like giving up because of feeling meaningless... had been thinking... if i wanna see a change i should make the difference but yet i'm stuck in the old...

so confused... my soul & my body are fighting against one another.... always wanting to do what but why oh why my weak body... why didn't you listen...

camp is coming... God. RELID MY flame god... the one thing i'll pray for... RELID it please...

i have a friend...

for i once know him and i left him...
though i know he cares for me...
and knows what's best for me
yet i chose to leave this friendship and became a jerk...
doing things just because... i wanted to...
making decisions that only cared about myself...
chasing after things that are here today gone tomorrow...
thinking of the answer of life but never find them...
till this friend tag along...
he never forsake me
he knows what's best for me
though at times i'd always think about why am i doing this
is fame, money, emotions so important?
is pleasing everyone else so important?
if life is always going to be a whole cycle... where is the end of point?
is life supposed to be always finding pleasure?
is life supposed to be meant for you to suffer in?
i had so much questions i wanted to ask...
so many times people ask me why... why do you have so much why?
deep inside of you.. don't you?

finally i chose...
finding this friend that once gave me reason to live again...
i'd thought that he'd say go away...
i'd thought that he'd say i never knew you...
i'd thought that he'd ignore me...
but....
he didn't, he saw me and waited for me...
he is the one that has...
all that i need...
many would have guessed...
this friend of mine...
if there's such a perfect person...
the world will be a better place...
i'd say
i've never seen him nor touch him...
but i know... he's there
he's forever there.... you may run from him... but he knows you...
and he is non other then GOD... the God that i knew and i'll trust...

Thank you.........

a very nice song that i believe it's very true haha

Nickelback - Believe It Or Not lyrics

Believe it or not everyone have things that they hide
Believe it or not everyone keep most things inside
Believe it or not everyone believe in something above
Believe it or not everyone need to feel loved, feel loved
But we don't, and we won't until we figure out

Could someone deliver us and send us some kind of sign
So close to giving up 'cause faith is so hard to find
But you don't, and you won't until we figure out

I've seen it a lot every time the world turns upside down
Believe it or not most of us feel like we're losing ground
Believe it or not everyone hate admitting fear
Believe it or not most of us wanna know why we're here, why we're here
But we don't, and we won't until we figure out

Could someone deliver us and send us some kind of sign
So close to giving up 'cause faith is so hard to find
Someone deliver us, just send us some kind of sign
So close to giving up 'cause faith is so hard to find
But you don't, you won't until we figure out

Most of us have nothing to complain about
Most of us have things we could live without
Everyone need advice on how to get along
You don't, we won't until we figure out

Believe it or not everyone
Believe it or not everyone have things that they hide
Believe it or not everyone keep most things inside
Believe it or not everyone believe in something above
Believe it or not everyone need to feel loved, feel loved
But we don't, and we won't until we figure out

Could someone deliver us and send us some kind of sign
So close to giving up 'cause faith is so hard to find
Someone deliver us, just send us some kind of sign
So close to giving up 'cause faith is so hard to find
But you don't, and you won't until we figure out
You don't, and you won't until we figure out

My Future
earn my first million by age 30
first child by age 25
get married by age 23
get my own house by 23
start my first shop(online/retail) at age of 21
get my first car at age 20