yesterday went to steam boat with the NS guys. stupid kokleng told me alot of people coming! then in end only 5 NP guys the rest all NS haha i scared. all so muscular then i so small size there. haha then we went to countdown.

count down is totally stupid haha! we didn't even count and just shout MERRY CHRISTMAS and kokleng is there WOO here and WOO there then everyone at the place started shouting haha! all followed his footsteps haha. then we went to nel's place haha

nel had rashes so she'll be missing this year's celebration. god heal her fast :D cause she's flying again. she's flying tomorrow and my dad's coming back 1hr before her haha. god bless her journey :D.

then today was a sianed day haha. christmas and i'm at home whole day making the e-cards haha. finally completed all my 42 cards haha. sending to all my friends asap. gonna print for them soon.

thanks kelly for telling me more about haoyi and yiwei to share to me more about what she's facing now.

and boo to kokleng who go out never jio me haha! everyone was out today and i'm the only one at home emo-ing haha

yesterday went service haha! was really great i'll say haha.
started to do christmas cards liao haha
find them very artistic haha bhb!

we went to kok leng's house to watch movie haha. oh ya anna came for service too she liked it very much haha. the show we watched was exorcist and another one i don't know haha. the 2nd show alot of people fall asleep haha! kok leng, haiz.... choose a better show la haha

then we went to eat breadfast at, macs -.- haha. the whole day was fun .
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KUANLENG AND JESUS!

yesterday was really pissed by augustine...
though it has been very long but i think i need to say this.
his pride and negativity really blew me up. always wanting people to go his way and forcing people is just like talking away their free will. what the crap is he doing. and always complaining here and there, please augustine. understand this! OTHERS KNOWS WHAT IS HAPPENING AROUND YOU DON'T NEED TO SAY AS IF YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE WHO KNOW THE SITUATION AND STOP THINKING THAT YOU'RE VERY CLEVER. GOD CREATED US ALL THE SAME NO ONE IS MORE IMPORTANT THEN ANY OTHERS.

ok back to life.. haha
today they came my house to have a short & small prayermeet. it was good prayed for some specific people too. really hope to see hafiz to cross the line though. haha...
then we went to celebrate samuel's birthday haha... he super shy! haha... but ya he's happy alright haha. then we went prata house to have supper... though on the way home they stuck alot of time haha... but ya got home at 4am T.T didn't cut hair again! haha but this time is my fault. later going to cut hair with ah kok haha... this time must cut! haha

muahaha all 10 found!

guess the last 2 you guys sure will know de haha..

me and my mom finally ok liao haha. so happy~ haha

tomorrow the guys coming my house haha. and christmas is coming!
gonna prepare cards and etc. haha...

but this time not going to write for everyone haah. to those i'm close with only haha... and of cause the cg guys!
haha

thanks hafiz. today get to know him alot. he shared to me alot of stuff. but shhh it's secret haha..
just wanna tell you something in this post. once friend forever friend. life will always have parting ways but we'll forever be friends

haha today basically slacked whole day haha. had a great rest today haha. sleep alot play alot
mom starts to be unreasonable. but haha. think she's stress over alot of stuff..

inviting anna(my maid) to my church haha cool right! haha..
from tomorrow on i'll start a new chapter of life. haha. it's gonna be cool

have always been wondering of what her answer will be. but for now. this is not what i should be thinking of haha. christmas is coming haha the exact day of jesus's birth is 23th not 25th! haha

but it's still great that jesus was born during then. for he had really touched my life for this 1 year now. learnt alot from his gospels and teachings.

thank you lord. for helping me all the way now. how i want to share this love to the rest of my friends. :D

so many person i want to apologise to today...

gwen - sorry, i didn't meant to hurt you. due to my inability to handle the problem i caused so much pain in you. i'm truely sorry.

augustine - sorry, i didn't wanted to treat you like some rubbish. at times i feel irritated by you yes. even now when i'm typing this this feeling is still there. i'm sorry and i'll do something to my attitude.

kuan leng - sorry, my selfishness had caused many mix feeling in you and created so much pain in you. i'm stupid enough to do such rackness stuff. just hope for a forgiveness.

god - sorry god, in this 17 years i've found no one like you who is always willing to forgive me no matter what i've done to you. your love should be what i needed alone. but my foolishness went around and seek un-needed feelings that will fall and break down. though many prayers i've done asking for stupid requests you didn't scold me but you stayed there waiting for me to return. thank you lord. for your grace.

haha... today going to blog about yesterday.
didn't get to blog because i stayed over at kok leng's house haha..

met up with kuan leng at noon to talk about something then went off haha.. mind is clear now. decision is made now. everything's alright now i guess haha...

then slacked at home played some games then went to jam.
in the end only 4 person came so we postponed it to today haha.

after that we went to eat at serangoon haha. then go kokleng's house to slack till morning then sleep at his house till 11 haha.
watched borat, played guitar, sing a few songs like solid rock, miracle maker and stuff haha. then they watched a sermon. i was too tired so i went to sleep first haha.

then jose and kok woke me up for supper. at 5 in the morning haha! that's early. then went to his house and sleep again and now. here i am! at home!

haha going to LAN with guanjie liao haha. don't know kok leng will come but haha bye!

hm... i've done something i haven't done in 3 years now.
confession. thought what i've learn is to wait but i rather not regret in the future.

don't even know what her answer will be. but just wanna promise something here. though you ain't familar to this thing call relationship, i hope to say here that i won't be like the jerks out there and that it's purely up to you to choose. i hope to be your first and of cause your last.

haha. guess that's all i can do. she has high expectation i believe. therefore, if i didn't hit up to it, i guess i ain't just perfect enough for her

woo. today was fun!

woke up at 8 in the morning haha. went online chat and wait for ruihao to come my house(at 9). but he overslept, haha but nevermind he should be tired after so many days of working. so he came at 1 in the end.

we watched some stupid youtube videos and chat for a while. told him about gwen stuff.
oh talking about her. sorry it's not that i don't want to get into relationship, but i guess we ain't just meant for one another. i'd rather you suffer the harshness of what i'm feeling now then the torture of pain in the future.

then he went for shepherding at 3(he's meeting kokleng at 330). i went to find them for meeting at 5. we met up to pray for contact pools. then guan jie coming and hafish is coming too. haha so excited. we watched the show "The Pianist" a very sad show. about how the germans prosecute the jews in WW2(war world 2). then went home after that.

GUESS WHAT!! THIS IS THE MAIN PART I SAW AZHAR ON THE BUS HOME!!! HAHA GOT HIS PHONE NUMBER!!!

yea TODAY NO MORE PAPERS LIAO! haha
OOP feel so scare and lim poh seng think i still very good in programming haha. feel so bad to disappoint him.
alright man! gonna get my programming skills back!

haha then go play basketball with class guys. haha they're good man haha. darren, edwin, bernard, yi xiang, weilun, eilly & hui hui(know her today only) they're all very good haha. don't look down on the girls man haha. they're pro!!!

after that went to town to find the primary class guys. on the way there met up with kok leng and nel to go there together. then we stopped at centerepoint to buy books. but in the end we brough no books then go makan mac donalds haha. didn't eat finish again.

then rushed to find the guys haha thought i'm not late but still rust down haha don't like to be late >.< then saw ah bui and kajiao him all the way till the rest reach. the come in a way of , zhi peng & jokhie then jiaxing & liying then waited for very long and finally saw kuan leng out of the mrt startion haha.junjie reached first then joanne reached shortly after. judy and lijun came not long after. ting en & i suddenly felt that kokleong should come and we psychoed him till he decided to drag his butt out haha.

then waited for him till 8 + and went to makan. took us long enough to find the location to eat (thai express) haha 8 of us ate and i'm forced to eat with them -.- haha nvm at least everyone had fun except kuanleng(p.s. hey next time come out lets have more fun) then we went to take photos haha then after that go homeliao haha.

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word of god:

to some i give leadership
and to some i give strength
and to some i give talents
but to none i gave nothing

you do not need to show them to the world
but use them to help the world
for isn't it good enough as i know that you've been using them for the great glory?

Praise You In This Storm by Casting Crowns

i was sure by now
That You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say Amen,
and it's still raining

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
I'm with you
And as You mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

I'll praise You in this storm
And I will life my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
Every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry
You raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can't find You

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
I'm with youAnd as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away
I lift my eyes unto the hills

Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth

My Future
earn my first million by age 30
first child by age 25
get married by age 23
get my own house by 23
start my first shop(online/retail) at age of 21
get my first car at age 20