Do Not Be Spiritual Dead!! Be Spiritual Alive & Live A Strong Life Wif God!!

2009-05-28T21:17:00.001-07:00

not dead

2009-04-19T18:57:00.000-07:00

joining street fest this year

songs are yet to choose but hope we can win of cause!
still looking for a keyboardist and singer... hmm should be able to find
playing j rock for the first time too...

thanks to louis for teaching me drums lately though
and pushing him to play bass instead of his main instrument - drums...

kinda afraid of what they say about me being able to learn fast...
cause the last person who said that to me gave up cause i got too proud...
gonna get rid of it though...

5k is ours! must be ours!
playing x japan songs and other songs from other band... but not all songs are completed yet :)

2 months had passed and school restarted and on the 17th it's the 2 month of ting and me :)
gave her a super big lollipop made out of small lollipops but in the end looked like a bouquet of lollipop haha

went east coast park and slack there that day :)
dragging her into the sea = lost specs LOL
finally this spec is gone and i finally get to change specs!
steve vai specs?
LOL

2009-03-31T14:26:00.000-07:00

I'd be selling Original First Hand Ear Piece Soon! this is some information about the 3 models on sales.

Sennheiser CX300 selling at $80 Usual $119
Sennheiser CX500 selling at $90 Usual $119(note of the same price sold outside as CX300 but CX500 do have a better quality)
Original Stock iPod Earpiece selling at $20 Recommended Retail Price $50

stocks will come in soon and a website will be created just for it
Do Take Note That Ordering Is Able To Be Made Now!
Tag on the tagboard for more information

2009-03-25T01:41:00.000-07:00

lately it feels like life is in a roller coaster

camp sucks
just let me see how self centered everyone is and how they cheapo they are
so you call yourself brothers
only though the type of brothers who will push you down the cliff if they can earn even just 5cent

chalet is ok but kinda boring due to not enough money lol
said something real bad to baby without noticing the problem she is facing
felt so bad to make her mood worse

hope that everything is going to be alright ok :)
have fun at your trip to malaysia this sunday :)

2009-03-18T01:03:00.001-07:00

happy one month baby :)

2009-03-13T11:31:00.000-07:00

IT SHOW STARTED AND I STILL DON'T HAVE A JOB!!!

went to find my friends who are working today
heard that their sales sucks
cause dell is still a better company~ haha

went to watch movie with baby, everlyn and huitian
huitian lost her phone again which droped under her seat... lol
then sent baby home and went home

watched race to witch mountain btw
quite a nice show
and they were joking about huitian should be going back to mars with them lol...

gonna get my ear piece tomorrow from gary :)
hope it's good though haha

2009-03-11T09:47:00.001-07:00

nice song once again

Artiste: IRON MAIDEN
Title: THE AFTERMATH
Album: THE X FACTOR

Silently to silence fall
In the fields of futile war
Toys of death are spitting lead
Where boys that were our soldiers bled
war horse and war machine

Curse the name of liberty
Marching on as if they should
Mix in the dirt our brothers' blood

In the mud and rain
What are we fighting for
Is it worth the pain is it worth dying for
Who will take the blame
Why did they make a war
Questions that come again
Should we be fighting at all

Once a ploughman hitched his team
Here he sowed his little dream
Now bodies arms and legs are strewn
Where mustard gas and barbwire bloom
Each moment's like a year
I've nothing left inside for tears
Comrades dead or dying lie
I'm left alone asking why

In the mud and rain
What are we fighting for
Is it worth the pain is it worth dying for
Who will take the blame
Why did they make a war
Questions that come again
Should we be fighting at all

After the war,Left feeling no one has won
After the war,What does a soldier become
After the war,Left feeling no one has won
After the war,What does a soldier become

What is at home when the battles are done
After the war when no one has won
I'm just a soldier

4:23-Solo (Janick Gers)

After the war,Left feeling no one has won
After the war,What does a soldier become
After the war,Left feeling no one has won
After the war,What does a soldier become

2009-03-09T10:34:00.000-07:00

what a day today

so many first time!

first time got woke up by birds noises!
first time cook (for ting)
first time watched movie at lido(super retro place!)
first time buy umbrella
first time see people can drop a 10cent into a small hole at freaking KFC then having 2 person there dying to get it out (the person who dropped it is non other then ting)

haha

today ting came over at 1020 supposedly 1120 :)
she's early for 1hr!
i cooked fried rice for her and she rated 7/10 :)

went down to lido to catch PUSH wanted to watch watchman but she underage...
and went lido only cause i thought that they won't check! but wth!

after the show and it's still raining?!
we walked around taka and wisma but wanted to go to other places
thus went to buy an umbrella
upon leaving we found out that the rain is like no rain!
felt like wasted the money

went to walk around and eat at KFC
and that's where she dropped her pathetic 10cent coin lol...
the cashier and i tried to retrieved it but in the end we gave up the 20cents...
didn't wanted to collect more coins but in the end~ lol

then went to centerpoint and went into this guitar shop
every of the guitar actually has a wammy bar(or something like that)
but the equipment simply sucks
maybe because it's mainly a piano shop? haha

then went to PS and played arcade
i suck i KNOW!
she watched me play feel so bad like she sit there i play

then waited for ZR cause he said he felt pissed o.O
i also don't know why...

then after he reached we went to eat at the PS foodcourt
for those who don't know yes it had been reopened
but there isn't like any difference...
maybe table change black tiles change black
that's all...
and why do they even bothered to renovate?
lol

jarrel came and we went jamming :)
he said that i'd improved
but saw ting there like very bored...
felt worse in the end like ask her come do nothing see us play

after that sent her home and went back
took cab back cause it's like... 12.30
mom scolded me but XD i don't wanna use my money ma haha

and i'm super tired now LOL!

2009-03-07T08:55:00.000-08:00

falling sick now...
whole body is aching haha...
and i'm starting to get negative again...

happy birthday to vincent before i forgets haha...

lately hadn't been doing anything much... not really going out and stuff

only trying to finish my driving lessons to be able to book my TP asap.

miss my ting for this whole week...
only got to see her once and that day is well... i'd say a very nice and sweet day :)

tomorrow going for soccer... wonder if i could even have the strength to play
or should i play to sweat out?

2009-02-28T09:38:00.001-08:00

liverpool lost?! wth! haha
so long never see them lose le

yesterday is a nice day though i woke up at 8 but i don't mind :)
went down to bukit panjang to find ting:)
accompanied her to eat breakfast at macs... how long since i tried breakfast... hmm

waited for everlyn and their friend jingjie if i'm not wrong...
and both of them were late... wow is that a trend in bukit panjang or what...

then after that long wait we went down to jurong point(a place i hadn't been going since i don't know when)
caught the movie marley and me
it's a very nice show :)
but sadly in the end marley died...
the cycle of life is short i'd say...
so afraid that one day i'd see coco lying there not moving anymore...

then went to everlyn's house to play her wii
but my poor ting didn't really play though it's what she really wanted to play :(
next time you go you better play more ok :)

then sent her home and went down to town to celebrate rein's birthday...
nothing much happened but zhen rong hit his head to the glass door...
got quite a bad cut...

went to find vincent at whiskey bar...
hadn't seen him for quite sometime now...
had a small chat with him but he looked troubled... wonder what happened...

went home soon after but overall it's quite a nice day for me :)
especially able to see you xD

2009-02-25T04:25:00.000-08:00

no more papers le ^^
quite scare that i'd fail mad but i guess i deserved it even if i fail...

lately i had not been sleeping well and well... those who know me for long they'd know, me without enough sleep = go crazy...
of cause not practically crazy but like easily fustrated and strange thoughts comes easily...

mom had been scolding me about my hair... should i cut or grow?
gonna be a better son now... not because of her birthday is coming but because i should haha...

some things i wanna promise myself by end of the year
learn how to be a good bf for ah ting of cause!
quit smoking(casual smoker still but not smoking alone anymore)
spend more time with my mom, hadn't been talking to her nicely for so long
slowly come back to god...
do well for my drumming!

haha though my new year res is abit late but it's never too late right? hahaha

2009-02-20T11:17:00.000-08:00

had my first paper today ^^
thinks that it's quite easy but i'm 15minutes late and i slack for 15minutes before even touching the paper and i left half an hour early... so i completed the paper in 1hr time...

sorry baby... can't get your AD for you this sem... my whole sem is like slacking all the way... tons of warning letters and emails...

went to tempines to find brenda to supposedly go down to sally's birthday party... but in the end something happened in which i'm not really sure either... but hey brenda! zhen zhuo qi lai! though i don't really know what's happening...

then went home with samuel... he geikiang! say wanna drive me home with his BICYCLE?!... he turned right without warning and i flew off the bike.... and now my right hand and leg is having some small wounds haha... we're crazy... laughing there for like 5minutes i think...

wanted to go down to the party after dinner cause i've no money to buy a present for sally... thus thinks that if i just go there and eat free food is quite... unpleasent... but with the wound there...i don't even feel like standing up to move around at home... cause of the irritating feeling...

came back and baby asked me to study though i'm so tired XD... but i did managed to study 4 chapters of MAD...the theory is like WHAT?! i don't understand?!!!! but managed to catch something...

went to sleep and woke up at 3... had a funny dream though...
AND COCO IS FARTING MORE THEN USUAL... IS THAT ALRIGHT?

2009-02-19T05:50:00.001-08:00

tomorrow is my first paper!

2009-02-17T07:35:00.000-08:00

before i start anything...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAOPEI AND KOKLENG...
...

today went out with liting ^^
went to watch the curious case of benjamin button
nice show...
and nice person to watch with haha...

i'd take good care of you ^^ promised~

2009-02-15T09:10:00.000-08:00

Ryan Cabrera

True

I won't talk
I won't breathe
I won't move till you finally see
that you belong with me

you might think
I don't look
but deep inside in the corner of my mind
I'm attatched to you
mmmm

I'm weak
it's true
cause I'm afraid to know the answer
do you want me too?
cause my heart keeps falling faster

[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
to the only thing thats true
so I will not hide
i'ts time to try anything to be with you
all my life I've waited
this is true

you don't know
what you do
everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move

I'm weak
it's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
do you see me too?
do you even know you meant me!

[Chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
to the only thing thats true
so I will not hide
its time to try anything to be with you
all my life I've waited
this is true

I know when I go
I'll be on my way to you
the way that's true

[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
to the only thing thats true
so I will not hide
its time to try anything to be with you
all my life I've waited
this is true

2009-02-14T09:22:00.001-08:00

my next hairstyle

2009-02-14T09:18:00.000-08:00

lately coco is farting more then usual... strange
haha random...

this year is my first year actually spending time out on a valentine's day... crap but ya...

why do people always thinks that i'm a person who has tons of EX?
lol... strange...
do i look that flirty to you guys or what? lol...

this post is damn random but haha ya... today is a happy day^^

2009-02-08T09:25:00.000-08:00

thought it through around what's happening around lately...
decisions had to be made...
and thus... my final decision is not to waste my youth anymore...
time to serve like there's no tomorrow again

2009-02-02T08:25:00.001-08:00

a song i wanna say to some people

bon jovi
have a nice day

Why, you wanna tell me how to live my life?
Who, are you to tell me if it's black or white?
Mama, can you help me try to understand.
Is innocence the difference between a boy and a man.
My daddy lived a lie, that's just the price that he paid.
Sacrificed his life, just slaving away.

Oh, if there is one thing I hang on to,
That gets me through the night.
I ain't gonna do what I don't want to,
I'm gonna live my life.
Shining like a diamond, rolling with the dice,
Standing on the ledge, I'll show the wind how to fly.
When the world gets in my FACE,
I say, Have A Nice Day.
Have A Nice Day-ay-ay

Take a look around you, nothing´s what it seems
We're living in a broken home of hopes and dreams,
Let me be the first to shake a helping hand.
Anybody, brave enough to take a stand,
I've knocked on every door, on every dead-end street,
Looking for forgiveness and what's left to believe

Oh, if there is one thing I hang on to,
That gets me through the night.
I ain't gonna do what I don't want to,
I'm gonna live my life.
Shining like a diamond, rolling with the dice,
Standing on the ledge, I'll show the wind how to fly.
When the world gets in my face,
I say, Have A Nice Day
Have A Nice Day-ay-ay.

(Guitar Solo)

Oh oh , if there is one thing I hang onto,
That gets me through the night.
I ain't gonna do what I don't want to,
I'm gonna live my life.
Shining like a diamond, rolling with the dice,
Standing on the ledge, I'll show the wind how to fly.
When the world gets in my face,
I say, Have A Nice Day.
Have A Nice Day-ay-ay.
(in the background)
(Have A Nice Day)

When The world keeps trying to drag me down,
Gotta raise my hands, gonna stand my ground.
I say, hey, Have A Nice Day-ay-ay.
Have A Nice Day!

2009-02-01T18:34:00.000-08:00

went to find bag around town with brenda on friday...
and there was this Emporio Armani bag that interests me...

on saturday, went to church and went to walk around with zhen rong around town...

sunday went to Heng, Me, Rein, Andersen's house to take angbao haha... in sequence.
but in between Rein's house and Andersen's house we went down to town to buy the EA BAG!
haha...
those buggers wants empty bags for what?! hahaha
but thanks andersen who loaned me 100.

went lan after visiting andersen's parents.
went back and watch soccer haha
LIVERPOOL 2 - 0 CHELSEA
wooo haha...

2009-01-30T02:41:00.000-08:00

just came back from tokyo

went to quite a few places...

just came back from tokyo

went to quite a few places...

didn't get to go shopping...
only place i got to shop is duty free and the stuff there is hell lot of expensive stuff...
thus didn't get anything there either..
sorry guys didn't meant not to buy stuff for you guys...
i didn't even get anything myself... sad

cold war with my dad there...
even up till now...
as usual though...

some photos from there

2009-01-24T03:25:00.000-08:00

FUCK IT!
IF YOU DON'T WANT ME IN THIS HOUSE JUST SAY!
STOP SAYING WORDS IN A FORM OF PERSONAL ATTACK!

2009-01-24T02:03:00.000-08:00

i'm leaving... but i don't feel like leaving... hmm

2009-01-23T08:26:00.000-08:00

JAMMING CANCELED damn!

finally finished my OOAD1 assignments...
went to find zhenrong and heng at town to prepare to go for jamming
then that IDIOT HENG IS LIKE FREAKING LATE! then no room!!!

after that went to meridian to eat and went to ivan's shop to find him
hey bro! get back up ya
i'm sure your dad doesn't want to see you like this too

and on the way there
A FREAKING LOUSY LORRY DRIVER WHO SHOULD GO AND RETAKE HIS LICENSE HIT ME!
heng i'm not injured
else he's gonna be dead

2009-01-22T04:23:00.000-08:00

today went school as normal, go makan at canteen 3 then go lesson again and bla bla bla...

but in class weilun, val and i were looking at the photos in my hdd and look what i found hahah

How beng i used to look.. woah?!
Fighting Daryl.. mai xiao xiao

Handsome hor... just agree don't deny hahaha14 tickets and it goes never ending

sorry bro this is just a MUST put photo.... try to guess the location

and of cause why will i leave this out...

due to i might be killed by these guys soon... please pray for me thanks...

2009-01-22T01:47:00.001-08:00

lol another nice song

bon jovi
you can't lose at love

You Can't Lose At Love

You can lose at cards
You can lose your keys
You can lose the house or lose the lease
You can lose your car, you can lose the race
You can lose your mind or lose your faith

Take a look around and hear what I've gotta say
You can't lose at love

No, you can't lose at love
You can't lose at love
You can't lose at love
Chose anything you can dream of
No, you can't lose at love

We could lose the plot
Or we could lose our way
But I ain't going to lose
These ain't good games we're playing
Let me make you an offer too good to refuse
No, you can't lose at love

No, you can't lose at love
You can't lose at love
You can't lose at love
Chose anything you can dream of
But you can't lose at love

Now we just might roll a seven, these ain't loaded dice
We'll never get to heaven from this driveway tonight
You've heard a million promises that's never come through
Baby I'm telling you we're due

You can't lose at love
You can't lose at love
Chose anything you can dream of
But baby, you can't lose at love

Take a chance on me
Cause you can't lose at love
Take a chance on me
No, you can't lose at love
Take a chance on me
You can't lose at love
No, you can't lose at love
You can't lose at love
You can't lose
You can't lose

2009-01-21T02:34:00.000-08:00

The Spirit Carries On
Music by Dream Theater
Lyrics by John Petrucci

Nicholas:
Where did we come from,
Why all here?
Where do we go when we die?
What lies beyond
And what lay before?
Is anything certain in life?

They say, "Life is too short,"
"The here and the now"
And "You're only given one shot"
But could there be more,
Have I lived before,
Or could this be all that we've got?

If I die tomorrow
I'd be all right
Because I believe
That after we're gone
The spirit carries on

I used to be frightened of dying
I used to think death was the end
But that was before
I'm not scared anymore
I know that my soul will transcend

I may never find all the answers
I may never understand why
I may never prove
What I know to be true
But I know that I still have to try

If I die tomorrow
I'd be all right
Because I believe
That after we're gone
The spirit carries on

Victoria:
"Move on, be brave
Don't weep at my grave
Because I am no longer here
But please never let
Your memory of me disappear"

Nicholas:
Safe in the light that surrounds me
Free of the fear and the pain
My questioning mind
Has helped me to find
The meaning in my life again
Victoria's real
I finally feel
At peace with the girl in my dreams
And now that I'm here
It's perfectly clear
I found out what all of this means

If I die tomorrow
I'd be all right
Because I believe
That after we're gone
The spirit carries on

2009-01-20T05:00:00.001-08:00

today is great haha

thanks darren and yanli...
both of them helped me to clear my mind

though i'm damn bored now hahaha...

guess this makes my day

2009-01-18T20:43:00.000-08:00

this is a post that i wants to say that's hidden in my mind for days...

i know that you already know about how i feel for you.
but lately, it hurts me seeing you so troubled and so lost.
and i know that it's not only me but god too.
just wanna let you know that i'm still a friend here to help.
yes i may be fond of you, but i'm here speaking as a friend.
there is no point of holding on to this that is forcing you crazy.
it's gonna not only hurt you but him and god too.
if it will to help you guys to get to know god more by all means go for it. but as i see from now, it seems like god is nowhere near in this relationship.
in fact a relationship that is godly has problems but they can always be solved with an understanding of who god really is.
non of you is ready to handle it yet. and i believe you can see it clearly.
all i could say is, give one another personal time to understand god fully.
and i believe that god wants to be there to help you too.
sorry for being so frank but i guess this is really what friends are for.

hope this can help. just a word from me

2009-01-18T07:09:00.001-08:00

a nice song
Bleeding Heart
Angra

Now I know that the end comes
You knew since the begining
Didn't want to believe it's true
You are alone again, my soul will be with you

Why is the clock even running
If my world isn't turning
Hear your voice in the doorway wind
You are alone again I'm only waiting

You tear into pieces my heart
Before you leave with no repentance
I cried to you, my tears turning into blood
I'm ready to surrender
You say that I take it too hard
And all I ask is comprehension
Bring back to you a piece of my broken heart
I'm ready to surrender

I remember the moments
Life was short for the romance
Like a rose it will fade away
I'm leaving everything

No regrets, war is over
The return of a soldier
Put my hands on my bleeding heart
I'm leaving all behind
No longer waiting

You tear into pieces my heart
Before you leave with no repentance
I cried to you, my tears turning into blood
I'm ready to surrender
You say that I take it too hard
And all I ask is comprehension
Bring back to you a piece of my broken heart
I'm ready to surrender

I've waited for so long!

You tear into pieces my heart
Before you leave with no repentance
I cried to you, my tears turning into blood
I'm ready to surrender
You say that I take it too hard
And all I ask is comprehension
Bring back to you a piece of my broken heart
I'm ready to surrender

I'm ready to surrender

2009-01-18T07:01:00.000-08:00

today went jamming! haha woo

we had 2 session instead of one out of the blue...
or at least me?

went with heng and zhenrong to play the songs we planned... then on the way there ZR suddenly said... we need a keyboardist haha to start our own composition of music...
and lets see who are the keyboardist that i can name... jordan rudess!!! but how do i get him that's a big problem hahaha...
ok lame... but will we be able to find one who is as good as him? haha i hope... but some that i've thought of will be... kelly and brenda... and btw anyone who is into guitar/keyboard/singing GIVE ME A CALL! noob or pro we welcome all haha... cause we ain't that good too hehe...

btw the first session is abit cock up haha...
but the 2nd was nice ^^... nice eq and setup makes it all easier to play haha... i could feel every instrument and i could play the drums with happiness instead of stress...

and that makes my day haha...

oh ya REIN GANA BIRD SHIT SPAM IT TO THE WORLD!

2009-01-17T09:51:00.000-08:00

lately things happen and mould me and changed my point of view in many things...

started to see that god is the most important around life... as my regrets of losing him for that period of time grew... the hunger of wanting to come back to him grew...
he told me something that i think is very good for those who ain't doing very well now...

GOD is like the best Jam Jar in the world... and if we were to taste it, we'll know that it's nice... but sometimes humans have the habit of wanting to try something new... and get bored of what they have... and after a while they'll keep that Jam inside the fridge... wanting to try new type of jams... they will buy many more and try them... but after not long they found out that the old one was the best!

and as they wants to use it once again. they will find that it's harder to open as the lid is frozen and is too stiff... using all their force and might they simply can't open it... but there is always a way to solve this problem... and it's by the use of heat... and that by heating it up... you can once again open it and use it anytime anywhere...

what i wants to say here is. no matter how far you left god, he is always there deep inside your heart, fridge in this case, and he will never leave you, and thus don't be afraid to come back to him. you don't have to force your way back into god. god doesn't want to see that but in fact god just wants us to ask him for help, in this case the help is the heat, you can use a prayer to ask him, spend sometime to read the bible or simply just worship him as who he is and who he will be... he is there, right there, waiting for you. so don't force yourself to come back to god but! just give him a call... god's phone number : 84309673(the word)

another thing that matured me will be relationship... haha such a common issue for everyone...
was in a relationship not long ago if you guys noticed haha... though my tracker is telling me hardly there's anyone coming into my blog haha...

but yes, relationship isn't about i like you i want to chase you i want you to be there for me and i want to be there for you.... haha this is what people calls chasing after girls or sometimes nowaday guys... haha...

but what i noticed was... if you truly love a person, you will want what's best for the person. and sometimes the best is not in you. and don't force yourself into the person. you'll just be an irritant of the person's life. and i'd say there is no point of chasing after people. cause most of the time, you'd just not be yourself. you'll just make both side feel hurt and even pain. the point will be it's always better to be friends haha... time is still long for people our age... why do you have to rush haha...

haha and i'd guess this is why i had been going around asking people about their point of view of relationship and stuff... and it seems that, there are many different ways that people sees it. from christian to non christian, from age of 15 all the way to the age of 45 i asked... haha so if i'll to say what they tells me i'm gonna write a book out of it...

and for me... right now... i'm just gonna spend more time with my beloved jam jar haha... and sleep earlier... and of cause! quit the stupid cigarette....

2009-01-14T08:35:00.000-08:00

this few days i've been thinking... shit sometimes when i think i start to get emo SHIT!

next saturday i'm going to JAPAN!!! haha BURBERRY BLUE AND BLACK LABEL HERE I COME!
hope i can buy at least haha cause it's freaking ex i think... at least what i saw online haha...

today went out with heng, andersen, zhen rong, ivan and rein...
haha so long never see them almost... like 2 weeks? haha

we're going to have a chalet soon haha... and our plannings are crazy...
then we went to eat window shop and talk haha... thus that made our day

on the way back with heng, we saw jose.
then we talked and sent her home and i got home haha...

but today somehow i'm wondering will there be home for me to get you?
or am i just thinking too much and i should let go?
hahah random thoughts

2009-01-12T06:19:00.000-08:00

today went to school late gosh...

went for 2 hours and went down to tempines to find brenda...
randomedly watched seven pound... nice show but the place kinda irritating. lights on with people infront of us talking non stop...
we changed our seats and i'm so paranoid haha...

after that went to warm up under the sun(or i could say moon) then went to eat

after that slacked around and chat and went home haha

2009-01-10T23:11:00.001-08:00

watched ponyo on the cliff by the sea on friday with brenda
it's VERY NICE! haha...
though i hoped that the show has something more after the ending...

and THEY DIDN'T SING THE SONG UNTIL THE CREDITS!!! haha
in which i had a great time singing that song in the cinema XD

went shopping on saturday before service and bought a agnes B long sleeve
should be good for both school and japan trip

service was great but i almost fell asleep =/

after service went to buy my drumsticks cause mine is going to cui soon i think

went to eat and stuff as usual then went to centerpoint robinsons to shop funny...
checked out the perfumes. found one that smells quite nice maybe i'll be buying at duty free as what brenda told me that it's way cheaper there... haha... CHEAP and good = can wait hahah...

then today is sian all the plans had been canceled =.=

2009-01-06T09:12:00.000-08:00

hello~ guys!!!\

school start le T.T sian
friday going to watch ponyo anyone from NP group is interested?
until now only brenda is going lmao...

liting owes me a movie ticket and i'm still thinking of what show to watch hahahaha.....
too much movie that i want to watch so must find one that suits the FREE TICKET!
anyone have any movies to intro hahaha

2008-12-30T01:20:00.000-08:00

so long never blog haha... lazy to blog lately though

nothing much had happened...
this christmas felt kinda weird. most probably due to all the lack of sleep and falling sick...
didn't even felt like celebrating it this year.

don't even have present sadly haha...
but christmas is never about gifts taken but it's all about gifts given...
sorry guys didn't get anything for you current amount of money + bank in total is like 3.98... pathetic haha...

lost my wallet and found it luckily but all of my money are gone expectedly...

went jamming on sunday and it was all screwed up... but somehow we did have fun next jamming i must have a better constant beat!!!
haha

2008-12-10T06:44:00.000-08:00

lately life hadn't been going out how the way i hope it'll be but somehow i kinda like the way it goes.
shouldn't be this way but don't know what's happening inside. it felt like as if i want to feel the pain in life. and the more it comes the more i want more. am i crazy o.O haha i don't know

another thing will be i had been missing my granny recently. though she's not there anymore for almost 2 years now, at times i'm just hoping that she was here at least nagging at me. but of cause i know you're doing well up there and it must be breaking your heart looking at me down here doing all these stupid and meaningless stuff.

lastly will be mom, had a quarrel with her not long ago. now that she doesn't gives me money nor am i really wanting to listen to what she says, our relationship is getting worse and day by day i'm starting to lose out in money. soon i'm going to be broke, or you can that i'm broke now (with just less then 5 bucks to use to survive)

haiz...

2008-11-25T10:14:00.000-08:00

ok promise baby to blog... so i blog... but don't know what to blog about...

going to work in the coming sitex show this week... and i am having my FTT tomorrow haha... pray for me to get more money guys! and pass that stupid FTT!

went out with baby the other day then she came over to stay over... only that my mom came in and started scolding haha... woke up in shock haha... then went back to sleep while baby can't sleep haha... bleah but hack care i need the sleep so i just sleep... feel so bad... but nvm~ haha

after waking up unwillingly i went to play dota... then baby sit there and watch sorry!! then send her home while i go to service... in the end nvr go slack outside church

wanted to hear about the restructuring then after that went home le... next day gotta work ma haha...
working like a zombie and it freaking hot there at 12pm under the hot sun... feel like just run into air con area and sleep...

then at night went to find baby at sengkang to eat... ate subway but both of us are stuck inside deciding on what to eat -.-

sent her home and went back of cause... then monday went for the briefing on Sitex show's product and went home soon after...

tuesday dota whole day gosh... 10 match won 1 FUCKING NOOB SIA ME!

2008-11-19T18:00:00.001-08:00

finally got my lappy back found out that i've lost alot of my songs sad...
projects are finally coming in... have stuff to chiong... not like last time when i'm just stuck there having nothing to do...

went drinking and work and stuff the usuals though...

nothing much happened... other then the crazy stuff which we did... like peeing into singapore river...haha i shall not say who joined me but it was a hell of an experience... scary but funny haha...

and some idiot even take photo of it in which makes me laugh each time i saw it...damn

2008-10-31T07:54:00.000-07:00

sian laptop broke down... what a day
lost some of my songs...
lost microsoft word
lost my visual studio.
school stuff and many more

this few days was random
but will talk about QunEn and Jason's birthday celebration
think it's a happy night for both of them...
got them presents and sang birthday song as usual...
did some fun thing at there too haha...
we went to watch coffin... not a nice show so if you wanna watch i'll strongly advice you not to watch cause you'll be wasting money for sure

2008-10-23T05:20:00.000-07:00

fall sick this week...
doc said i'm fine but i my body is acking damn... what's happening?

gonna QUIT that stupid stuff asap! it's killing me

met mavis on tuesday at dhoby ghaut... had tauhuay as dinner haha... wth la
then went to thomson LK(liquid kitchen) had a drink... whisky sour... and it's real sour haha
forgot what she ordered haha

went to J8 to eat... wanted to eat chicken rice but it's closed thus i ate KFC haha...
the person gave me 3 chicken but i can only clear my 2 hahaha...

sent her back and went home...
soon after SAMUEL TAN called me for supper haha...
then we stayed up till like 6am before hitting home

then yesterday watched liverpool vs atlentico madrid match ended 1-1 haha
saw aguero play he's quite good
but i didn't want to watch it but i JUST CAN'T SLEEP
and went to see the doc today...
she said i'm fine but i just can't sleep
only get to have my sleep at like 12pm?! wth!

and now i'm blogging haha

2008-10-19T06:43:00.000-07:00

this few days was crazy....

went school for 2/5 days GOSH
Wednesday stayed out till 5am and missed school
Friday went to buy stuff and went to find Mavis and we practically walked the whole night till 3am before settling down at Bishan till 6am...
Saturday went drinking with Vincent and a Waitress is super drunk...
Sunday Slack~

2008-10-14T05:59:00.000-07:00

this few days was kinda bored haha...
bought a new shirt and should be the final for the year not long ago...
went to buy the fred perry bag sis asked me to but sadly the shop is closed...

went drinking with vincent, guanjie, samuel and kelvin
2 bottle of martell with 4 person drinking(kelving was drinking coke more)
puked and missed first day of school hahahahahahahahahahaha

then 2nd day of school was sian 3hr of break?! wth?!
stoned the whole day

found out that i was so paranoid and stupid lately...
so i'ma just continue my life and see what's gonna happen next...
so it's up to you to make your decision...
while i slack around haha

2008-10-13T01:25:00.000-07:00

Far Away(2007)
Nickelback
All The Right Reason

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know, you know, you know

[CHORUS]
I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
Cause you know, you know, you know

[CHORUS]
I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

So far away
(So far away)
Been far away for far too long
So far away
(So far away)
been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

All I wanted
I wanted you to stay
Cause I needed
I need to hear you say:
that I love you
(I love you)
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
(and I forgive you)
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and never let me go
Keep breathing
Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me...never let me go
(Keep breathing)
Hold on to me...never let me go
(Keep breathing)
Hold on to me...never let me go

2008-10-10T11:24:00.001-07:00

kinda no mood today to go out...

went to FRED PERRY at chinatown with the guys and my sis...
didn't get anything but wanted to get a shirt for dar, most probably getting it tomorrow cause today was so rush...
going down tml in the afternoon hope that she will be able to join me of cause...

went to town and see stuff but in the end only bought a lacoste shirt...
wanted to meet dar but didn't want to ps my friends.
but they are so kind ^^ they asked me to go find her instead thanks for the understanding guys...

in the end didn't get to meet her kinda sad about it...
haiz... she lost her phone which means i'll be unable to contact her for a while...

some true words in me.
i'm so afraid dear, that you'll leave me again.
i want to trust you! and i'll trust you!
things is happening now that how i hope you're there now with me
and finally I MISS YOU

2008-10-09T07:44:00.000-07:00

just came back from chalet... it's fun!
first day went out with gwen and her friends at downtown east...
wanted to go to WWW... but its close on TUESDAY phew haha...
then we went to eat and went cycling
her friends went on ahead while we're at the back chatting...
i'd say during then we're still quite SHY to talk to one another haha...
but now it's better le ^^
after that they went to bath while i went to the chalet to put my bag first...
CHIONG OUT to find them after that...

we went down to town to eat...
something SCARY HAPPENED on the train but shall not say about it
but THANKS DEAR ^^ for telling me

we went to HEEREN and eat... forgot the name of the restaurant but it sells pasta...
gwen's friend asked if i want to sit in front of GWEN but i'd rather be beside her haha...
like that closer ma XD

we did something stupid there too haha
it's a day of STUPID actions haha...

on our way out we went off to paragon and got some liquor
haha somehow we wanted to KIXIAO and thus they got bacardi while i wanted to try something new...
mine tasted nice somehow like alcholic chocolate haha only that it's a drink ^^ nice~

after getting our first one... we ended up at far east haha...
and tada there's 7-11 there too...
we went to get another one gosh... and they are getting red already!
should had STOP them...
her friend shanlin(should be spelled this way tell me if it's wrong) VOMITED...
took a photo but hadn't upload it yet...

shanlin's bf came and send her back while the rest took cab home...
oh ya by this time weilun was there with us..
we were going back to chalet together but i asked him to accompany me to send dear and her another friend home first...
she was quite drunk...
sent her to her void deck...
then went off sending her friend and we went back to chalet

i got a Q&A session about her gosh...
so SHY!
was able to really talk to them and chat with them...
get to know them more at least here and there

2nd day of chalet was sleepy
woke up at 12pm haha...
stupid la EILLY!
cannot sleep don't drag us la T.T
haha oops...

they went to watch SUNRISE
while i watched it in my dreams

played soccer for a while then we slack till our bbq came
wanted to see her so badly...
tried to ask her to come find me in the chalet but she was kinda shy and thus we went to have a walk at the beach
stupid rain! took away the dry sands and created muds...

we went back to the chalet to take my WALLET which i left it there...
they saw me and didn't see her and all CHIONGED out to see her!
GOSH so PAISEH!
like some zoo animal sia!
we TRIED to run away cause kinda both of us felt WEIRD

went to CLARKE QUAY while thinking of finding a pub to drink...
while sadly when we reach there all of the nice pubs are closed and thus we had a drink and slacked around
haha i'd miss the BRIDGE...

she had a headache and thus sent her home...
on her way back she VOMITED T.T... shouldn't had allowed her to drink
went back to find the guys and i was KOED... so tired

we went off eating BRUNCH and i left first SHAG!

LETS DO IT TOGETHER...

NEVER TO GIVE UP ON ANYONE, GIVING OUR ALL FOR ONE ANOTHER
NEVER TO LOOK BACK IN THE HISTORY, GIVING OUR BEST IN THE FUTURE
NEVER TO CRY OF THE LOST, HOLDING ON TO WHAT WE HAVE NOW AND FOREVER

2008-10-06T11:38:00.000-07:00

the camp was fun ^^
many different baby photos are being exposed haha...
and man does PINGSHENG LOOK FAT!
first night slept at 4am... and i can't really sleep as they were practicing the worship till quite loud.

2nd day woke up at 9. spend QT then i fall asleep again haha... gosh i'm so tired.
after that we went to CHANGI BEACH and photos will be uploaded soon
qiulian and ruihao joined us after our first game... PHOTO HUNT haha... thus some photos will be funny!

went back and ISAAC shared to us a teaching...
and we had appreciation time...
really wanna thank AUGUSTINE for the BAILEYS and gosh is it nice or what!
haha for those who hadn't tried it GO GET ONE NOW!
slept at like woah 7am?!
woke up and fall asleep and woke up and fall asleep...
finally woke up at 3pm..
and lalala i missed my FTT once again... must rebook!

school's starting soon next week...
went home after the thing and went out in half an hour time to meet GWEN ^^
we went to taka to wait for the DELL guys but in the end we didn't meet there...
went to CINE to see if there's any movie that we can catch if we didn't meet them...
but i don't really have any show in mind lately so... we stucked there XD
called ANDERSEN to ask about what they will be doing and they told us to go down to PS and find them...
before leaving CINELEISURE we went to FRED PERRY to look at the shoes...
though i didn't saw the one i saw online but i did saw one that was pretty nice...

sadly i can't find the photo of the shoe but well... it cost 175 but haha... i'm wondering now if should i buy since i just bought my ADIDAS shoe not long ago... thus we left~

reached PS and the rest were at KFC and was going to find them...
but GWEN felt awkward to be with them and wanted to leave...
i didn't want her to go off T.T thus i dragged longer...
went up to the cinema though there's no show in mind, i really wanna SPEND more time with her
thus i randomly chose PAINTED SKIN(but it's nice though, touching love story the person beside GWEN was crying)...
while watching the show.. i wasn't really focusing on the show...
well cause... i wanna ask her to GIVE ME another CHANCE
though it had been 4 years... many things actually happened between both of us...(YOU AGREE TOO RIGHT?)
BUT!
this time! i wanna make it RIGHT!...
but i was shy haha... shit me with all this but...

THEN before the show ENDS i made up my mind!
i ASKED her on the way to the MRT station... abit unromantic at all la...
i sounded so shy and both of us felt funny...
cause though we didn't say it verbally...
our HEARTS are already there...
just that both of us have the same problem!
SHY AND DON'T DARE TO TAKE INITIATIVE!

then after sending her off at the MRT station, i went up to find the rest at FOODCOURT
SORRY guys! i didn't want to PS you but please to understand me
i'd promise you guys too that there won't be a 2nd time

we played poker there till 11+ then we left home and tada i'm here bloggin about today hahaha

hey dear(something for you),

i believe that this road that we'll be taking is sure not going to be a smooth sail.
tests will come to break us up but lets do it together alright!
no matter what is going to come! this is a promise for you from me i'll put my 100% TRUST in you
that none of the past HISTORY is gonna Break Us Again

Sign,
[JoB]ZiJiE

2008-10-03T10:16:00.000-07:00

muahaha.. i forgot to blog about what i promised XD sorry guys who are very actively reading my blog

we went to celebrate ivan's birthday on wednesday haha...
it was pretty fun... but i'm getting broke!
i used around 80bucks that day... gosh!
well it' for of cause my NEW SHIRT
it's a ClubMarc's shirt pretty nice i think... wore it today while i went out with GWEN~

haha but before talking about today...
celebration of his birthday is fun...
he STRIPED woo!
and he's SEXY...
cause we bought for him a shirt from FRED PERRY

we went to play ARCADE & BOWLING after that
haha... i owned them in bishi bashi haha... thanks to my drumming i won all the speed stuff XD...
almost lost the SOCCER one when i hit the defender haha... but i WON unexpectly haha... PROUD XD shit!
but i was totally TRASHED at bowling haha...
gosh ZHIYU is good...
and one of the guy his SEH is there.. haha STYLO MILO's finishing... haha
we tried to CURL the ball but lalala... we ganna the LONGKANG...

then we went over to the nearest taxi station and some of them cab home
wanted to go with ZHIYU and JASON first... but i paiseh don't wanna be a FREE LOADER
then stayed with the rest
heng, crimson, ivan and his friend went off first

we stayed on and played POKER haha...
or you can say DAIDI...
then it was like wow! SOOMUI is PRO! play everyday in school daidi-er to the max!

then yesterday went to buy CAMERA with mom... bought a SAMSUNG NV-24HD

bought a silver one.. though i felt that black is nicer but she'll be the one using most of the time so haha...

then I went for CG... with the cam haha...
wanted to take photo but didn't took any nice photo... some will be...

haha and that's about it... main character COCO... XD

NOW TODAY!!!
FINALLY WENT BACK TO DRIVING ...
SHIT man... so many mistakes... and the instructor FORGOT me! how could he...
haha but nvm... it's true...
almost 2 months liao never go.. how could he remember la haha..
i cocked up my whole stuff... SHIT! but nvm

went to meet GWEN after that... haha know her for 4 years liao... wow...
so fast... haha
SO much things happened and she's still as AWESOME as ever haha... sound wrong but haha...
met her at her block's VOID DECK...
she gave me a small cup of BEN & JERRY icecream...
haha though i don't really like chocolate... but it was NICE... i wonder why... hmmm... XD

went down to DHOBY GHAUT to have dinner at SWENSEN... haha...
my one and only meal today! gosh haha...
then we went down to THOMSON to a pub.. i forgot the name...
i ordered BLUE LAGOON and it's nice! haha
and the ATMOSPHERE there is just... AWESOME!
then we went home soon after that...
haha
oh Gwen... next time come out TAKE PHOTO LEH

I'D SURE MISS THE OLD DAYS

2008-10-01T13:44:00.001-07:00

ok i'm lazy to blog today haha
but i'd just say what i'd be blogging about for tomorrow

1. IVAN'S BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION
2. 'TONNING' AT MARINA SQUARE
3. NIGHT SAFARI
4. GYM
5. NEW CAMERA
6. NEW SHIRT

2008-09-28T07:08:00.001-07:00

saturday was fun haha...
went to buy present for 3 friends haha... won't say who lalala
then went to service haha...
gosh i want to buy that LACOSTE shirt which cost $60 only!
should i should i not... hmmmm....

oh ya! I MADE A NWE FRIEND TODAY...
KEVINA...i didn't take a photo with her... but ya she's the one beside CUI~ wen...

went service haha... OH
WOON PLEASE GET WELL SOON... PHYSICALLY AND SPRITUALLY

reach home at 11 and i am super tired haha...
slept at 12! do you BELIEVE IT!
I SLEPT AT 12!

haha... today was kinda boring though...
was SUPPOSED to go bring daryl go swim & go down to KAKI BUKIT to find something for the night walk but...
sis don't want to bring daryl go SWIM + it look like it's gonna rain...
jose had some TUMMY PROBLEM then never go to kaki bukit...

thus i stayed at home and watch F1...
the most saded person in F1 this Grand Prix will be Felipe Massa haha... due to his stupid crew who didn't take out the fuel thingy he got into 13th place
while Fernando Alonso won his 20th Grand Prix...

personally i'm hoping Massa or Hamilton to win... haha but nvm...

GRATS ALONSO WHO HAS THE COMBINATION NAME OF FERNANDO TORRES & XABI ALONSO TO WIN HIS 20TH GRAND PRIX... AND LIVERPOOL IS GOING TO WIN HER 18 YEARS OLD OF WAITING OF BEING THE EPL CHAMPION

2008-09-26T13:12:00.000-07:00

SORRY XUEPING SORRY I NEVER LINK YOU SORRY

2008-09-26T09:26:00.001-07:00

CG today haha... total strength 4 person
haha well it's pretty good i'd say though we didn't do anything much we had a great time together talking and having fun haha..

went off to JAMMING after that
haha it SUCKS but fun haha...
so paiseh haha... we played like shit
actually i had a big problem with my timing as normal haha...
well at least drumming really helped me in my timing...
was worse then what they saw today haha...

a video of us playing AMITABHA haha

haha try to see me there if you can haha... i'm playing the DRUMS haha

we went to prata after that haha... but before that i bought a 2L bottle of milk!
haha want to grow FATTER!
i'm TOO SKINNY!

STUPID COMPUTER WHY YOU SO LAGGY! WEREN'T YOU SUPPOSE TO BE A HIGH PERFORMANCE LAPTOP 2 YEARS AGO?

2008-09-25T09:53:00.000-07:00

SORRY guanjie... i overslept if you need help do tell me again SORRY!

today woke up at 2pm... gosh... gonna really learn to sleep early man!
watched anime and went to find kok to go to nel cg together
he was LATE as normal but it's alright since it's not really his fault
reach there at around 5 which was suppose to start at 430...
left early at 6 to go and celebrate AHMA's birthday

went to LINGZHI restaurant at some place i forgot the name haha...
then went over to QUEENSTOWN (her house) an had a small chit chat session with them...
then went home...
BUGGED my dad to give me money to buy pants haha...
all my jeans are bought by him from CHINA...(cheapo product)
and 90% of them are spoilt -.-

went home to practice on the songs for jamming
and gosh is DARE YOU TO MOVE hard...
can't figure out the bridge... so maybe tomorrow i'll just anyhow wack haha :P

HAPPY 72nd BIRTHDAY AHMA!

2008-09-24T10:10:00.000-07:00

i'm supposed to have a meeting at 12pm haha... but i reach at 3pm gosh...
pretty nice in the meeting though. we talked about what we could do and things that is going to change in the group...
gonna start to change myself fast. i don't wanna stop myself in this cycle of stupidity haha...

then went to kokleng's house waiting for him to bathe and go buy stuff(NOT SHOPPING BUT JUST BUYING)...
i bought myself wax and facial wash... i used up mine months ago but was lazy to buy atnd mom is complaining haha...

something SHOCKING happened!
today was JOSEPHINE'S BIRTHDAY and non of us remembered
we went all the way down to KOVAN to celebrate with HER
the guys that were there are
KOKLENG, ZEJUN,QIULIAN, JIAN WEN(jose friend),BETTY(jose friend), JIASHEN(FATTY PIGGY) and me
treated her to dinner. though i'm getting poor but just treat ba haha...

then they came to my house to choose the songs for jamming
and they are
dare you to move - switchfoot
hossanna - hillsong united
inside outside - delirious
mighty to save - hillsongs
my future decided - hillsongs
haha HOPE i can play them well

then we went supper and went home
they forgot to drink my VODKA haha
means i'll have more for MYSELF muahaha

HAPPY BIRTHDAY 19TH JOSE - FISHY- NEMOEY- TURTLEY - PHINE

2008-09-23T10:02:00.000-07:00

woo today wanted to have a date with WOON hahaha....
GAY! nevermind...
my sis tag along and we went to find JOB!
went to amk and there' simply NO HOPE to find a job there...
only the one that is walking around aimlessly(saying me)

haha got back my lameness today yeah! gonna lame the world out of me...
then we went to marina square to cut hair(supposedly ONLY)
but we went to Club Marc and gosh their stuff are nice! and is currently having a 50% discount
So those who are looking for stuff Do Go There And Take A Look...
went zara but nothing amuse me...
went to lacoste and woah it's ex haha... ran out of the shop(not practically but try to imagine it if you want YOURSELF!)
then next is PUMA haha... Just got a Puma watch a few days ago and guess what...
i'm starting to love puma even more...
got a polo tee there for $89... gosh i'm gonna be such a good boy from now on...
this is the shirt hahathen went to cut hair which cost 28 per person haha... gosh... used over 100 just today like that i'm going BROKE!
if any kind soul who would love to give money to the poor... here is one living at 229 serangoon ave 4 #09-39
thanks~!
haha... this is my hairstyle(the hairstylish helped me to do it but i'm gonna change abit so i'll not look so strange for the time being haha)
gosh i look more kiddy then the past... but who cares haha...
btw i'm wearing my new shirt wee~ haha

oh went to interview at KBox too...
6 bucks per hour...
hope i can get in haha...

then went to HOPE SEM gosh it's tiring...
the teaching is good but theres so much to listen to...
gosh i'll faint and there's 5 memory scripture to go for...

after that went to clarke quay to find my sis...
we wanted to go clubbing...
but her stupid friend dragged so long till my sis is damn pissed...
thus she went to find her other friends at GOLDEN MILE! GOSH!
there's a club there?! and it's thai... haha
i didn't go with her...
it sound so strange and haha... i don't even dare to go into that place again..
stink and scary ew!

thus here i am blogging...

ANYONE GOING CLUBBING JIO ME PLEASE I'M DESPERATE TO KNOW HOW'S IT'S LIKE... STRANGE ME

2008-09-22T12:37:00.000-07:00

yeah!
updated my laptop today and STUNED my songs can't be played!
shocking!
deleted the update and tada i can listen to my songs again...
never more relieved then this haha...

something that i want to change :
be glad with what i have a verse that said this.
>>Mark 4 : 25 >> whoever has will be given more; whoever does not have, even what he has will be taken from him.
why so? if you don't have anything how do God take them away...
well(answering myself) first you must know what you have, then God can use you in what you have and give you even more. but if you don't even know what you have and yet always look at what you don't have, how can God use you in what you have when you don't even want to use what you have and always look at what you don't have? thus sooner it's not God who want to take it away from you. but it's you who chose to give it away to be wasted.
LOOK AT WHAT YOU HAVE!! IF YOU CAN'T FIND LOOK FURTHER AND MORE POSITIVELY AND YOU'LL FIND THEM... FOR SURE!

2008-09-22T08:05:00.000-07:00

another nice song that i'd reconmend

Lenny Leblanc : Beans and Rice

God speaks in the land by the sea
Somehow He feels closer to me
And as I watch the little children play
My heart says I want to stay

I love the beans and rice
And the people are so nice
With the coconut trees
Swaying in the summer wind
When the raindrops fall
And the river rise so tall
It's like a little bit of Heaven coming down

2008-09-21T08:36:00.000-07:00

hadn't been out today haha...
was wondering... what had i been doing lately...
what was my motive and why am i doing things that i did haha...

wanted to do some reflection
and haha.. gonna kick this stupid negativity out of me haha DAMN YOU GET OUT! haha...
thanks xiaoji! for the care and concern... really needed those haha...
guess i always seek for attention but forgot to give others the attention that they need haa...
sorry guys/gals for the trouble and irritating and insensitive words i've said sorry

2008-09-20T13:19:00.000-07:00

yeah! today finally found the watch that makes me want to buy...
found it at... Centerpoint CityChain... bought a puma watch haha... i find it nice... at least i find it haha...

went to service and yes the sermon is very good ^^ it do helped me in motivating me to want to study haha...
went to have dinner and celebrated miao xin's birthday haha... how nice it's the same date as daryl
OH! HAPPYBIRTHDAY DARYL,MIAOXIN & HUIJUN!
haha abit late but haha... yeah...
went to find june with vincent, xue, jose and samuel at boat quay... haha felt abit funny but nevermind haha..
then went back to serangoon with jose while the rest went to find chulee. we chatted for quite long haha... from bus to mac donalds to her house... all the way till 4am... woah... but thanks jose... at least you tried to help me...
she told me about what i can do to not sent wrong signal to girls haha... in which i found out that i had been doing unknowingly... gosh...

ANYONE HAS A FLEXIBLE PART-TIME JOB THAT YOU CAN INTRO TO ME PLEASE TELL ME.. thanks

2008-09-19T22:24:00.001-07:00

a very nice song! haha... well it helped me somehow

Switchfoot - Meant To Live

Fumbling his confidence
And wondering why the world has passed him by
Hoping that he's made for more than arguments,
And failed attempts to fly.
Fly.

We were meant to live for so much more
have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside
Somewhere we live inside
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside

Dreaming about Providence
And whether mice or men have second tries
Maybe we've been livin with our eyes half open
Maybe we're bent and broken. Broken

We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside
Somewhere we live inside
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside

We want more than this world's got to offer
We want more than this world's got to offer
We want more than the wars of our fathers
And everything inside screams for second life

Yeahhh!

We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
We were meant to live
We were meant to live

2008-09-19T12:34:00.001-07:00

lets talk about today...

gonna apologise to the guys first why i was so quiet just now... will explain in this post...
i was thinking... why do i want to change?
why do i seek to be a better person?
why do i always have so much pride in me that i don't want to show how weak i really am?

kinda childish but at least i've set clear my motive...
quiet but think through quite a lot of stuff...
i don't wanna hide away anymore... god... how far can i hide...
it's so true when you said. the more you want to hide things behind close doors the more you'll show what is happening inside.
i prayed and asked god about this at least...
then this came to me...
for god so loved the world he gave his one and only son for those who are willing to humble themself down that you'll let him mould you.
no matter how much i force myself to change... if i will to never unerstand why should i humble down... pride will be able to find so much loop holes to come in and destroy me...

Sorry lord... i know that i had been running away from you for so long now...
giving myself this thing call excuse that hide myself from being humble enough to come to you and seek you for help...
playing tough in front of you and trying to use my own stupid and useless ways to hide myself...

i tried to be strong but i'm weak... without you how far can i run...
for those who are reading this and isn't a believer... i'll say this...
i don't want to hide myself from serving anymore... running away from my MEETINGS(in which is my CareGroup Meet) is useless... i wanna serve with the team together the team that i've seen them changed... the team that have grow from a useless bunch of freaks to a group who is willing to do something... you can hide but how far can you run? i tried to run i tried to hide... but the more i does so... the more i'm draining myself out...

TO A FRIEND :
i will not even know if you are seeing this or not but i'd just say...
you had been a great friend all along... but when time flies... it's getting more and more obvious now...
you said that you treats me as a friend.... if you mean it then please... don't show me that you're just treating me as a freak anymore... i'd guess i hope you won't know who you are... but if you do... i'm just saying... i'm tired of the neglection that i felt...

2008-09-17T09:07:00.000-07:00

yesterday was fun... haha

went out to find mom and had lunch with her haha...
she shared to me her problems in which how she wants to bring the family together but how hard she tried and how bad it backfired back...
then went on to buy daryl's present haha... she bought him a golden neckless haha pretty cute but haha i wonder will he like it? hmmm... well he's too young haha
bought a liverpool new home jersey for myself and went to had dinner with my uncle and father...
they ate i was kinda full but i ate abit too haha...
then got home and was waiting for that indian to meet him...
but in the end he told me no need le...
felt so shag wanted to sleep but waited for him la haha T.T... nevermind haha...
so he said to meet before cg but now i'm feeling very sick... so i might not go well i'll tell him later if he reply me on msn or give me a return call haha... else i'd call him by 1am...

back to today haha...
went to take pay with some of the dell friends...
those who were with us...
3 category i created for them haha
rare... roy and dickson
uncommon... xiaoji and huijun
common... ivan, cuiwen, soomui, ziyan and yiai...
there is also another guy who i didn't really get to know him haha... he's from acer by the way...
and also a girl who i don't know haha... she bought a MP3 at simlim too haha...
well for myself i wanted to get a watch but didn't find any of them... it's either they are too expensive or haha... not nice... so must i get expensive stuff... haha i don't think so! haha so i'd look around more soon i guess haha...
well my pay is $306 in which i think i could have done better!
well after that we went to look around bugis street or you can say the girls... haha but well we're just there to look at them looking for their stuff haha...
went to had dessert after that... didn't took any photo but it's nice! haha gosh i will miss it i think at least haha...
soon after that we went to play pool haha...
my body starts to tell me that it can't work for much longer... well this is where i start to get sick and feel uneasy

SORRY GUYS! for the worry and stuff... and + my attitude just now was pretty bad sorry...
on our way out haha... i NOSE BLEED!! haha wow! first time in my life that i know of i nose bleed! haha cool! felt like... hahaha... running nose...
i was shocked when everyone started crowding me like gosh he's gonna die! haha
but i know that you guys cared ^^ thanks haha...

gosh i haven't choose my song! haha gonna choose it now haha

2008-09-15T06:49:00.000-07:00

haha today finally went to eunos to know about the company
and it sucks
selling some strange health product which is like what woon told me haha thus i'd not be going to answer or reply that person le haha... oops XD

came back and i fall asleep haha so tired T.T
then went over to indian's house to had a meeting on the 'soon to come' NP outing haha....
the plan is out but i won't be saying much about it first haha...

and guess what! PAYDAY IS HERE
haha!
but i don't wanna go alone so i'm thinking of going with some of the guys...
but they are like going in 3 different days! which one should i go hm... or should i go to all... maybe i can get 3 times ... wishful thoughts haha

but ahh when should i go? T.T

2008-09-14T09:58:00.000-07:00

today was kinda boring to start with.
woke up at 1pm was thinking of going for the job interview but i'm lazy... damn
called the person that i had something on then went online and talk(my something on)
talk for a while and had the sudden urge to listen to jazz haha...
downloaded quite an amount of micheal buble songs... he's like the only jazz singer i know gosh...

had a nice chat online with yiai today... somehow learnt something from her though it might be just a chat but learning can always take place everytime in which i'd like to learn more of what i can change in and be a better man haha...

while downloading guanjie came by my house and had a pretty nice chat with him...
i'd say he has changed alot since secondary school but will not elaborate here else this post is gonna be super long...
after downloading we went to parklane to play pool and lan....
muahaha i owned him but that's not important... what's important is we could spend some time and talk about more serious stuff which i didn't really do before with him...
came back to serangoon at 12+ went to mac and had a seat and started chatting again haha...

woah am i tired now haha... but don't think i'd be sleeping anytime soon haha...

sign off,
[JoB]ZiJiE

2008-09-13T11:16:00.000-07:00

haha finally about lately

i had been emo-ing about stuff that's happening around me or i'd say in me
maybe because i had been wanting to get relationship which is what the church will discourage which made me pretty selfishly fed-up

a few person i want to thank for helping me through

xueping - something she told me seriously struck me
(Q: how do you know you're ready for relationship
A: When you ain't thinking of getting into one)

yiai - the way her relationship could last for 3 and a half year touched me into understanding about relationship and also it really shows me that the type of relationship i had been seeking is able to be found since it's the type of relationship she is in now. which assured me that i shouldn't rush into any quick conclusion and stuff

cuiwen - i want to thank her alot for being there to listen to me and stuff. sharing to me her honest opinion about stuff and giving me advices though she thinks that she didn't but i will say YOU DID!

evaine aka strawberry aka soomui - thanks for being a listener too haha thanks i don't know what to say but just many thanks for being there to listen my boring words haha

jiamin - haha something she told me that helped me to overcome this too
(if you are looking for a life-partner going into a relationship with her now will surely not make her your wife since we're still young but if you keep it till later then won't the chance be higher?) how true at least by what i've seen in my friends around me and my family

ISAAC ANG KOK LENG AH NEH INDIAN WORKER GOING TO BANGALADASH TO START CHURCH IN THE FUTURE - muahaha long name but i want to thank him for being so patience towards me though lately i hadn't been really saying much positive stuff to him and had been giving him alot of trouble thank you mr... super long name guy muahaha

augustine - i wanna thank you for the stuff you told me and that something for you don't worry for us yea ^^ i promise you! i will be a history maker here to help around. god's prophesy isn't going to break down but this marks the dawn of something new and something is going to happen. put your trust in me while i will bring NP up towards a new level of leadership and new level of god's servents into the world to come

and finally the decision i've made : i'd not be going to FCBC le. i'm gonna stay in Hope and stay in NP for i've made a promise... not going to think so much about rls since what for do i need when god too said this do not worry about what you wear or what you eat or what is going to happen tomorrow. though to some of my non-believer friends they will not understand this but i'd say even if you're not a christian : don't worry so much in life cause it'd just harm yourself life isn't hard to live it's how you see it. if you see it in a bad way you'll live your life as bad as you see it is. but if you see in positively, you can always smile and say life is good... it's human nature to look negative but it's always so much better to look at the positive side of life that everyone has. you might not see it now but trust me you'll see it if you find it.
if you truely seek something you'll find it.

2008-09-13T11:05:00.000-07:00

a small post about HONGKONG Leadership Conference

for those who didn't know i was in hongkong for a conference(sound so big sia) with hope church internationally during 3rd to 8th of september.

What I Miss :
I MISS MY DELL FRIENDS
i miss my bed and coco
i miss chicken rice and prata

What Impressed Me:
canto... i can never understand a single word
ocean park... the dolphins are so cool and cute
shopping... stuff are cheap and nice unlike singapore
the worship... it's so special worshiping in hongkong and cantonese
Hope London... a place i'll always want to go and impact
Hope Australia(forgot which state)... i like the way they worship god

What I've Learnt:
The teaching there were about Indigneous church
Mainly about how to be a missionary of creating a church for the local and not for yourself
about how we bring one another up even when you're oversea

What's Bothering Me:
what can i do to really bring god into OUR GROUP(not NP but the members first)
what is the meaning of HISTORY MAKER
should i go over to FCBC to help my parents

2008-09-04T21:05:00.000-07:00

haha yay gonna blog about my work first haha...

was working at COMEX show during 28-31 of august...
well it was fun seriously except serving those irritating customer.
i made a total of 18 friends there, all my colleague of cause.

something about my work:
-i'm selling dell laptops at a booth sharing space with Acer and HP.
-my pay is 50 + commision.

something i love about my job :
- my colleague haha will elaborate about that later
- my boss
- the fun customer

something i hate about my job:
- indian customer's saliva

haha why i love my colleague haha... here goes
they are fun people who are matured in their own special ways
they are very friendly with one another and patience too^^
they will be fully willing to help you and give you tips in stuff too haha

why i love my boss haha
he's serious in work i'd say but when it comes to play he is really serious in playing too haha(heard at least)

why i hate indian customer's saliva
well they will like always ask for free gift with their saliva flying in here and there in which i'd say it'sVERY irritating haha...
but i'd understand why they will ask for such things too. since they came here to work they hardly has the money to support themself more about getting the laptop at around 1k-2.4k thus of cause they would hope for the lowest price and most gift as possible.

haha i'd say something about my colleagues too haha

this is the list of their name alphebatically
anderson, colin, cuiwen, dickson, huijun, ivan, jason(boss), mark, marvin, pei hong, roy, shannon, soomui aka evaine, xiaoji, yiai, yvvone, ziyan

and somethings about them

anderson : he's a guy who look abit older then his age but he's a guy who is willing to help you as long as you ask him. few words to say about him will be kind and mature man

colin : haha he has the ahbeng look but he's a good friend i must say haha hope to know him more in the future

cuiwen : a person with good leadership skill in which i'd say the leader of our group when we get out together. might be abit rar rar but overally she's a kinda and fun person to stick with

dickson : first person to speak to me haha, he's a fun person to be with fun to talk to and easy to talk to too. he'd be a very good friend i'd say seriously! XD

huijun : she's pretty rar rar haha... though she might worry alot easily but she like to make friend with you. looked sporty which is pretty clear that she's a person who like to play sport and a person who like to have fun and staying outdoor(if i'm wrong XD sorry)

ivan : ivan is a very clever person i'd say. knowing alot of stuff that we don't know. he like to have fun too like to crack jokes around haha which i'd say lighten up everyone's life in a way or another of casue haha

jason : haha my boss! haha a person who can't multi task very well, but he'd like to make sure that everyone is doing well but will easily create busyness himself.

mark : a pretty quiet guy didn't really get to talk to him much but for sure it seems taht he can surly make a good friend haha

marvin : a handsome young kid who will get alot of friend i'd guess haha... he's funny person though most of the time he's quiet too haha yeap ^^

peihong : i shall not say that much about her since i don't really get to talk to her much but one thing about her is her english is good!

roy : a very clever person in doing business haha he can do stuff fast and do it easily

shannon : haha a guy who can make a good friend surely! like to talk to people much of cause

soomui : people always comment on her height, but she'a person who is quiet a good listener i'd say haha... though she was sick the whole show but she's willing to listen to you and talk to you when you need company ^^

xiaoji : haha a quiet guy i'd say haha, he would want to play with us too of cause haha

yiai : haha she felt like a sister to me in which i'd say she's the first person other then my blood sisters who made me feel this way in which i'd really hope that i can get to know her more in the days to come and that haha... maybe hope that she'd be the first person to be my gan jie haha.

yvvone : a clever person i'd say, able to talk to you around of cause but though at times she might do things that you won't understand but i'd say she will be a good friend in time to come of cause

ziyan : yiai's sister. she's quiet but will talk to you when you start a conversation with her of cause haha

a photo of everyone will be uploaded soon haha i don't have it in my laptop it's in my HDD

2008-08-24T10:05:00.001-07:00

a song i wrote : nameless yet

here in my life
i found your love
when i was lost
you light my way

deeper then all i know
further then all i see
god you will light my way
and give me strength

i will seek your light
i will love you lord
i will not run
nor hide myself
lord you give me
more then i can take
and i will worship
you

2008-08-01T11:13:00.000-07:00

haiz...

lately had been feeling so tired...
had been having the heart to just let it go for a while...
but i know i can't...
feel like having some fun in my teens...
which i know i can still find...
so confused...
so tired...
should i just let go for a while... and just have fun for a while?
should i continue to fight in which i don't see anything happening...
should i still fight for the team who shoot me with their gun?
i wondered...
what's coming next?

2008-07-15T12:32:00.000-07:00

WHAT A SONG!... it crushed me... and re-mould my breaking heart instantly thank god!

Our God Reigns

40 million babies lost to Gods great orphanage,
It’s a modern day genocide and a modern day disgrace
If this is a human right then why aren’t we free?
The only freedom we have is in a man nailed to a tree.

100 million faces, staring at the sky,
Wondering if this HIV will ever pass us by.
The devil stole the rain and hope trickles down the plug,
But still my Chinese take away could pay for someone’s drugs.

Our God reigns, Our God reigns,
Forever your kingdom reigns.

The west has found a gun and it’s loaded with ‘unsure’
Nip and tuck if you have the bucks in a race to find a cure.
Psalm one hundred and thirty nine is the conscience to our selfish crime,
God didn’t screw up when he made you,
He’s a father who loves to parade you.

Yes he reigns, yes you reign, yes you reign,
For there is only one true God,
But we’ve lost the reins on this world,
Forgive us all, forgive us please,
As we fight for this broken world on our knees.

-----------------------------------short review of what happened i had and what i want haha------------
apart from this... i got myself my guitar from swee lee a Cort forgot the model name as it's with kok now...
i really wanna be a good shepherd... but i don't know how... how hard T.T... but i'm gonna ask my shepherd to teach me!
and i want to go jamming! wanna touch DRUMS!! XD
-------------------------last week --------------------------------------------------
it was so AHH!! XD
had been helping aileen and her groupmate in their project as a model... sadly non of them know my name but haha it's ok i guess
but i found out how weak i had become... as i know god doesn't want me to be some guy who only dare to speak to christian only... but how weak i've become not to be able to make at least an impact in them somehow or somewhere...
but yea! i thank god for giving me these eyes of seeing potential... lately i had been able to see how much god can use people... how much god want to use them... and that i really wanna go and share once again! may it be a guy or a girl or even a homosexual! i really wanna see people understand that this god that i serve! this god is a real god... i may not see him but I can't see the wind too... i don't see god but i know he's there!...
-------------------------------------------------------------------sorry list----------------------------------
BERENICE I DON'T KNOW IF YOU'LL SEE THIS BUT! HAPPY BIRTHDAY! ABIT LATE BUT YEA HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I DIDN'T GET TO GO TO YOUR BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION BUT MARK MY WORDS I'LL GET YOU SOMETHING! SORRY!

WOON I ALSO WANT TO APOLOGISE TO YOU TOO! SORRY I HAD BEEN TO HARD ON YOU! SORRY! I WILL GROW AND CHANGE TO BE A BETTER SHEPHERD FOR YOU! I PROMISE YOU I WILL!
----------------------------thank god list-----------------------------------------
WEILUN THANKS! THANKS FOR BEING SUCH A GREAT FRIEND WHO REALLY WANT TO HELP ME HAHA THANKS! T.T I LOVE YOU GAY!FOR WHO YOU ARE YOU ARE GREAT!

WANNA THANK GOD FOR WOON ! HIS FRIEND ACTUALLY FOUND MY MP3 HAHA... IN CHICH I DIDN'T KNOW I LOST IT TILL I HEARD IT FROM HIM HAHA... THANK GOD FOR YOU AND YOUR FRIEND MAN! HAHA MY LIFE IS MAINLY ABOUT GOD AND MUSIC AFTERALL XD

AILEEN THANKS! THANKS FOR SHARING TO ME WHAT I SHOULD DO TO MY DAD! THANKS FOR GIVING ME VERSES TO HELP ME AND STUFF! MARK MY WORDS! I'D LOOK FOR CHANCE TO GET CLOSER TO HIM ONCE AGAIN!

KOK LENG! THANKS THANKS FOR HELPING ME AND GUIDING ME ALONG WHAT I SHOULD DO AND HELP ME ON MY LIFE! THOUGH YOU'LL BE BUSY BUT I KNOW YOU ALWAYS HAVE THE HEART TO HELP US! I TRUST THAT YOU'LL BE A GREAT CL AND SHEPHERD FOR US!

JOVIN THANKS! THANKS FOR SHARING TO ME STUFF ABOUT DRUMMING! THANKS FOR SHARING TO ME ABOUT BEING A DRUMMER DOESN'T MEAN YOU NEED A SET OF DRUMS AT HOME! IT'S THE HEART FOR GOD THAT'S MORE IMPORTANT THEN ANYTHING ELSE THANKS!

JOSEPHINE THANKS! THANKS FOR WACKING ME ON THE HEAD TO FOCUS ON WHAT I SHOULD AND TAKE OUT WHAT I SHOULD NOT! THANKS!
----------------------------------------prayer for you~----------------------------------

after all this i hope those who get to see this will see and those who are not listed i believe god will bless you in some way...may it be you're a christian or not he'll bless you and if you need any prayer feel free to contact me ^^ you can try my chatbox or add me on friendster and share to me if you want or msg me i'd put my number and email address here haha.. for those who hop by and need it too^^
EMAIL: ihadnoemail@hotmail.com
CONTACT : 98533541

2008-07-11T11:00:00.001-07:00

haha another pretty nice song...

great meaning too

Devotion
Hillsong United

Verse 1
I've been running, trying to be one who sees
I've been working, salvation out on my knees
There is nothing better than knowing
That we are redeemed
Unbelieving trusting in creative hands,
I am praying for our world to bow to your plan
And this one thought is unmistakable
I take up my cross and follow you Lord

Chorus
When you stand the tall trees and mountains bow
When you speak the fiercest of oceans is still
And I see the sinner seek devotion
The lost become chosen, and I fall to my knees

Verse 2
Unforgiven, my savior who did not deserve death
He was blameless and I was lost in shamefulness
Undelivered, but it doesn't seem right
Unless I keep my eyes focused on the savior who gave his live
In the middle of a world that denies it believes
It is breaking apart at the very seams
There is one thing to be alive for
And it's to take up my cross and follow you Lord

Bridge
I will take up my cross and follow Lord where you lead me
And I will take up my cross and follow wherever you go

2008-07-02T18:41:00.001-07:00

quite a nice song though it's kinda old haha

King or Cripple
Delirious

King or cripple what have I become?
Beneath these kingly robes there lies a fragile man
What made me a king can sometimes cripple
All that you give can sometimes rob my innocence

Why do you let us walk upon a cliff so steep
When deep below the sea there lies a bed of gold
And if this should be our battle place
Don't let me fall, don't let us fall

Keep me, keep me, keep me, keep me

I love to hold the hand of one who healed the blind
And saw the leper run into your arms of love
King or cripple, they were the same to you
You took the broken man and you treat him like a king

2008-05-24T12:32:00.001-07:00

haha was saying that i was looking for a guitar and i just found it! the guitar that i'll be aiming for is Epiphone Dove

2008-05-22T14:01:00.000-07:00

oh gosh... i'm thinking of getting so many things lately haha

a new phone! N81! super nice phone haha
A Guitar (acoustic) still have no idea of what to get... but thinking of getting the budget of 500-700 bucks
A External Hard Disk Drive! my laptop's space is going lowwwwwwwwww
C&C3 expansion pack! it's out for god sake and it's out for quite some time now too haha...
A camera! haha... i've found out that i'm always unable to find photos of the joy of life when i'm having that is haha...
A whole new bunch of books! haha i've finished all my books at home and is needing a whole new bunch of books to start reading once again haha...
Some whole new set of clothes! haha.... i've been scolded... JOB AH WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS WEARING THE SAME OLD SET OF CLOTHES EVERYDAY! haha.... die...
A hair cut... haha nvm this is crap haha..
LIVERPOOL WALLET! haha saw one at the fan club the other day... haha it's not very expensive phew haha... 3x only ^^ and as a lvp fan! i must get... haha... at least that's what i feel... it looked very cool too haha...
TORRES JERSEY! haha... he's my favorite player in LIVERPOOL haha... so it's a must must buy jersey for me that is haha...
DRIVING LISENCE! YOU'RE COMING TO ME SOON!
and OH guys!!! 2 more months my birthday~ any idea? hahaha....

2008-05-21T05:55:00.000-07:00

an extract from the book - the 7 laws of spiritual success by Selwyn Hughes.
on the chapter on Count Your Blessings

"Many years ago i remember hearing Corrie Ten Boom speak in a church in London. She and her family lived through the Nazi holocaust and they hid Jewish people in their home who otherwise might have been killed. Eventually she and her older sister Betsy were placed in a Nazi prison camp and it was such a flea-ridden place that she couldn't stand it.

One night, as they were praying and reading the Bible, Betsy said, " It says here in the first book of Thessalonians that we are to give thanks in everything."

'Well,' said Corrie, 'I can't give thanks for the fleas.'

Betsy responded, ' Well then, let's give thanks that we are together. Most families have been split up.'

Corrie thought, 'Well, I can do that but i cannot thank God for the fleas.;

Much later Corrie found out that one of the reasos why she and her sister were not molested by the guards (as were many of the women) was because their captors were so repulsed by the fleas they would not enter the room.

Corrie said, 'Every day since i discovered that i have given thanks to God for those fleas' "

Just wanna ask you guys... is there something in life that it seems so impossible to thank God for? if there is... think about it. maybe it's time to give thanks for it.

2008-05-11T00:52:00.000-07:00

something i wanted to tell you guys... either at home or anywhere...

hey...
it had been so long... it's so hard to live alone trying to fight for something higher...
i've seen all... so many times you may just need a support. you may just needed friends... you may just needed more attention... you may just need a love...
but
so many of you tried to fight to get it. some tried to fight some tried to lie and some just bang around finding the answer...
it hurts seeing people fighting against one another... it hurts yes it hurts... it hurts seeing people in order to get what they want they hurt others...
it hurts seeing people cry when they fail... it hurts seeing people seeking things that they at times don't even know the reason for them to do it... it really hurts... it really does...

2008-04-23T09:37:00.001-07:00

We Give You Praise

When the road is rough and steep
And it leads a heart to weep
There's an ocean of tears
That you've caught through the years
But we're not stopping here

On this long and winding street
Will you guide these weary feet
Every step that we take
With our hearts full of faith
And we're not stopping here

Together we are stronger so put your hand in mine

We give you praise
We give you praise
And the king of all the earth
Has saved us from ourselves
We give you praise

Through the avenues of time
Here you meet me where I am
We walk with glory and pain
And you've broken the chains
So there's no stopping here

We sing glory
In the darkness there you shine
Let it shine let it shine let it shine

2008-04-02T04:14:00.001-07:00

hohoho...

yesterday was a strange day haha...
unknowingly went out with kelvin woon to find hao...
then unknowingly went arcade...
then unknowingly went jamming haha...

found a nice sermon online... about self control... really wanna thank god for that...
day in day out.. i have been praying for a better understanding of self control and the importance of it..
and found one and the only one in youtube... haha...

thank god for all that he has given me...

2008-03-27T10:59:00.000-07:00

today was tireding but fun... unlike past few days... haha

went to help out the camp musicians by doing MM for them...
haha
lightings, PPT and projector... haha... we have 2 projectors but only able to use one haha...

we(kokleng and I) reached first at golden mile haha... cause we're like overslept and didn't went to nexus haha... nevermind that...
while preparing... jovin taught ben and i strokes haha... and how to hold the drum sticks... i must say... there's more then meet the eye...

we prepared abit of here and there... got my fingers cramped by the table... OUCH... talking about fingers haha.... i was at KL(kok leng)'s house before going to golden mile... and my phone slip into his couch... i don't know how or why there is a hole there... and it took us quite sometime to get it back out... haiz... how i wish i didn't get it out(so that i can change phone)... taking it out means sticking my hand into a near impossible reachable small hole... haha... thank god for creating me with small hands....

the practice was real cool... especially dinner break haha... cause i got to play the drums when non of the drummers is in the hall hahahahaha! i got hooked up soon after haha... then i forgot to let ben play >.<>.<

then they came back and practice their songs... was nice... can't say what songs haha... but was nice and cool... the admosphere is there haha... and it was ministering haha.... and finally a time when i feel needed and important after 2 weeks of meaningless rehearsal of a 100% useless script.... ok... i'm angry of the script but nevermind... i don't wanna talk about it... just get it done and over with... zao wan zao hao(early finish early happy*direct translation)... but today i felt useful! though my things are like nothing as before... but i felt needed... the people really shares to you about your importance... every single person felt that...

though i'm just playing PPT, Projector & Lights... i felt fun... and i'm so sure that this camp... it'll be a history maker in my life...

2008-03-25T05:03:00.000-07:00

confused, tired, searching... these are the words that best describe my life lately...

not sure who will be reading this or what... but ya just spining of thoughts.... hope not emotions

really wanna get back to god... so many times i feel like giving up because of feeling meaningless... had been thinking... if i wanna see a change i should make the difference but yet i'm stuck in the old...

so confused... my soul & my body are fighting against one another.... always wanting to do what but why oh why my weak body... why didn't you listen...

camp is coming... God. RELID MY flame god... the one thing i'll pray for... RELID it please...

2008-03-14T11:55:00.000-07:00

i have a friend...

for i once know him and i left him...
though i know he cares for me...
and knows what's best for me
yet i chose to leave this friendship and became a jerk...
doing things just because... i wanted to...
making decisions that only cared about myself...
chasing after things that are here today gone tomorrow...
thinking of the answer of life but never find them...
till this friend tag along...
he never forsake me
he knows what's best for me
though at times i'd always think about why am i doing this
is fame, money, emotions so important?
is pleasing everyone else so important?
if life is always going to be a whole cycle... where is the end of point?
is life supposed to be always finding pleasure?
is life supposed to be meant for you to suffer in?
i had so much questions i wanted to ask...
so many times people ask me why... why do you have so much why?
deep inside of you.. don't you?

finally i chose...
finding this friend that once gave me reason to live again...
i'd thought that he'd say go away...
i'd thought that he'd say i never knew you...
i'd thought that he'd ignore me...
but....
he didn't, he saw me and waited for me...
he is the one that has...
all that i need...
many would have guessed...
this friend of mine...
if there's such a perfect person...
the world will be a better place...
i'd say
i've never seen him nor touch him...
but i know... he's there
he's forever there.... you may run from him... but he knows you...
and he is non other then GOD... the God that i knew and i'll trust...

Thank you.........

2008-03-10T02:57:00.000-07:00

a very nice song that i believe it's very true haha

Nickelback - Believe It Or Not lyrics

Believe it or not everyone have things that they hide
Believe it or not everyone keep most things inside
Believe it or not everyone believe in something above
Believe it or not everyone need to feel loved, feel loved
But we don't, and we won't until we figure out

Could someone deliver us and send us some kind of sign
So close to giving up 'cause faith is so hard to find
But you don't, and you won't until we figure out

I've seen it a lot every time the world turns upside down
Believe it or not most of us feel like we're losing ground
Believe it or not everyone hate admitting fear
Believe it or not most of us wanna know why we're here, why we're here
But we don't, and we won't until we figure out

Could someone deliver us and send us some kind of sign
So close to giving up 'cause faith is so hard to find
Someone deliver us, just send us some kind of sign
So close to giving up 'cause faith is so hard to find
But you don't, you won't until we figure out

Most of us have nothing to complain about
Most of us have things we could live without
Everyone need advice on how to get along
You don't, we won't until we figure out

Believe it or not everyone
Believe it or not everyone have things that they hide
Believe it or not everyone keep most things inside
Believe it or not everyone believe in something above
Believe it or not everyone need to feel loved, feel loved
But we don't, and we won't until we figure out

2008-01-04T01:59:00.000-08:00

been so tired lately haha. and have been trying to wake up early! woo and it's kinda successful haha.

today mui hoon late haha.(OOP lecturer) then NF lecturer never come! haha so we went to play basketball haha... knees killing me haha. must listen to shepherd liao no basketball till it's ok haha...

going to watch movie in school later haha... waiting for kelly to finish her exams before going. haha...

THIS WEEK IS MARVELOUS! I DIDN'T MISS ANY LESSONS NOR DID I WENT LATE FOR ANY LESSONS!!! MIRACLE EVERYONE MIRACLES!! haha

2008-01-02T17:15:00.001-08:00

woo today woke up at 6am! haha shocking but true haha.

now in OOP lesson. i flunked OOP in first term now cannot flunk liao. 13/100. haiz... pride took over me during this period of time. it';s really time for me to take it off and changed to listen in class haha..

so now listen!!

2008-01-01T15:20:00.000-08:00

the lord my god is the king of all,
many will say where is he or is he real
but i will say here he is within us.
and his kingdom is real within us

for a king stays in his kingdom
and in his kingdom he reigns.
a good king create slaves
but a good king creates wonder.

he own me yet he did not enslave me
he own me and yet he lift me up
he own me and yet he did not throw me away
he own me and yet he keep me like his beloved.

the world brought me to darkness
but his love brought me to brightness.
the world lied and showed me what death is
but his love told me the truth and showed me what life is
ALL ABOUT.

he is the one.

2007-12-25T09:30:00.000-08:00

yesterday went to steam boat with the NS guys. stupid kokleng told me alot of people coming! then in end only 5 NP guys the rest all NS haha i scared. all so muscular then i so small size there. haha then we went to countdown.

count down is totally stupid haha! we didn't even count and just shout MERRY CHRISTMAS and kokleng is there WOO here and WOO there then everyone at the place started shouting haha! all followed his footsteps haha. then we went to nel's place haha

nel had rashes so she'll be missing this year's celebration. god heal her fast :D cause she's flying again. she's flying tomorrow and my dad's coming back 1hr before her haha. god bless her journey :D.

then today was a sianed day haha. christmas and i'm at home whole day making the e-cards haha. finally completed all my 42 cards haha. sending to all my friends asap. gonna print for them soon.

thanks kelly for telling me more about haoyi and yiwei to share to me more about what she's facing now.

and boo to kokleng who go out never jio me haha! everyone was out today and i'm the only one at home emo-ing haha

2007-12-23T00:53:00.000-08:00

yesterday went service haha! was really great i'll say haha.
started to do christmas cards liao haha
find them very artistic haha bhb!

we went to kok leng's house to watch movie haha. oh ya anna came for service too she liked it very much haha. the show we watched was exorcist and another one i don't know haha. the 2nd show alot of people fall asleep haha! kok leng, haiz.... choose a better show la haha

then we went to eat breadfast at, macs -.- haha. the whole day was fun .
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KUANLENG AND JESUS!

2007-12-21T08:00:00.000-08:00

today went shopping after don't know how long haha.

went with ping shen to go shopping haha. he brough some small toy! haha. still young haha...

i brough casting crowns's new CD!!! THE ALTER AND THE DOOR!!! and also i brought a new headset iLUV haha the quality is good until~~~~

went home and mom gave me my christmas present liao haha! she brought me a bible and teen study bible haha... thanks mom

and this is how an iLUV look like haha in case you don't know

2007-12-20T21:11:00.000-08:00

yesterday was really pissed by augustine...
though it has been very long but i think i need to say this.
his pride and negativity really blew me up. always wanting people to go his way and forcing people is just like talking away their free will. what the crap is he doing. and always complaining here and there, please augustine. understand this! OTHERS KNOWS WHAT IS HAPPENING AROUND YOU DON'T NEED TO SAY AS IF YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE WHO KNOW THE SITUATION AND STOP THINKING THAT YOU'RE VERY CLEVER. GOD CREATED US ALL THE SAME NO ONE IS MORE IMPORTANT THEN ANY OTHERS.

ok back to life.. haha
today they came my house to have a short & small prayermeet. it was good prayed for some specific people too. really hope to see hafiz to cross the line though. haha...
then we went to celebrate samuel's birthday haha... he super shy! haha... but ya he's happy alright haha. then we went prata house to have supper... though on the way home they stuck alot of time haha... but ya got home at 4am T.T didn't cut hair again! haha but this time is my fault. later going to cut hair with ah kok haha... this time must cut! haha

2007-12-19T09:48:00.000-08:00

muahaha all 10 found!

guess the last 2 you guys sure will know de haha..

me and my mom finally ok liao haha. so happy~ haha

tomorrow the guys coming my house haha. and christmas is coming!
gonna prepare cards and etc. haha...

but this time not going to write for everyone haah. to those i'm close with only haha... and of cause the cg guys!
haha

2007-12-18T09:59:00.000-08:00

thanks hafiz. today get to know him alot. he shared to me alot of stuff. but shhh it's secret haha..
just wanna tell you something in this post. once friend forever friend. life will always have parting ways but we'll forever be friends

haha today basically slacked whole day haha. had a great rest today haha. sleep alot play alot
mom starts to be unreasonable. but haha. think she's stress over alot of stuff..

inviting anna(my maid) to my church haha cool right! haha..
from tomorrow on i'll start a new chapter of life. haha. it's gonna be cool

have always been wondering of what her answer will be. but for now. this is not what i should be thinking of haha. christmas is coming haha the exact day of jesus's birth is 23th not 25th! haha

but it's still great that jesus was born during then. for he had really touched my life for this 1 year now. learnt alot from his gospels and teachings.

thank you lord. for helping me all the way now. how i want to share this love to the rest of my friends. :D

2007-12-17T05:50:00.001-08:00

so many person i want to apologise to today...

gwen - sorry, i didn't meant to hurt you. due to my inability to handle the problem i caused so much pain in you. i'm truely sorry.

augustine - sorry, i didn't wanted to treat you like some rubbish. at times i feel irritated by you yes. even now when i'm typing this this feeling is still there. i'm sorry and i'll do something to my attitude.

kuan leng - sorry, my selfishness had caused many mix feeling in you and created so much pain in you. i'm stupid enough to do such rackness stuff. just hope for a forgiveness.

god - sorry god, in this 17 years i've found no one like you who is always willing to forgive me no matter what i've done to you. your love should be what i needed alone. but my foolishness went around and seek un-needed feelings that will fall and break down. though many prayers i've done asking for stupid requests you didn't scold me but you stayed there waiting for me to return. thank you lord. for your grace.

2007-12-16T20:52:00.000-08:00

haha... today going to blog about yesterday.
didn't get to blog because i stayed over at kok leng's house haha..

met up with kuan leng at noon to talk about something then went off haha.. mind is clear now. decision is made now. everything's alright now i guess haha...

then slacked at home played some games then went to jam.
in the end only 4 person came so we postponed it to today haha.

after that we went to eat at serangoon haha. then go kokleng's house to slack till morning then sleep at his house till 11 haha.
watched borat, played guitar, sing a few songs like solid rock, miracle maker and stuff haha. then they watched a sermon. i was too tired so i went to sleep first haha.

then jose and kok woke me up for supper. at 5 in the morning haha! that's early. then went to his house and sleep again and now. here i am! at home!

haha going to LAN with guanjie liao haha. don't know kok leng will come but haha bye!

2007-12-15T08:57:00.001-08:00

hm... i've done something i haven't done in 3 years now.
confession. thought what i've learn is to wait but i rather not regret in the future.

don't even know what her answer will be. but just wanna promise something here. though you ain't familar to this thing call relationship, i hope to say here that i won't be like the jerks out there and that it's purely up to you to choose. i hope to be your first and of cause your last.

haha. guess that's all i can do. she has high expectation i believe. therefore, if i didn't hit up to it, i guess i ain't just perfect enough for her

2007-12-14T07:48:00.000-08:00

woo. today was fun!

woke up at 8 in the morning haha. went online chat and wait for ruihao to come my house(at 9). but he overslept, haha but nevermind he should be tired after so many days of working. so he came at 1 in the end.

we watched some stupid youtube videos and chat for a while. told him about gwen stuff.
oh talking about her. sorry it's not that i don't want to get into relationship, but i guess we ain't just meant for one another. i'd rather you suffer the harshness of what i'm feeling now then the torture of pain in the future.

then he went for shepherding at 3(he's meeting kokleng at 330). i went to find them for meeting at 5. we met up to pray for contact pools. then guan jie coming and hafish is coming too. haha so excited. we watched the show "The Pianist" a very sad show. about how the germans prosecute the jews in WW2(war world 2). then went home after that.

GUESS WHAT!! THIS IS THE MAIN PART I SAW AZHAR ON THE BUS HOME!!! HAHA GOT HIS PHONE NUMBER!!!

2007-12-13T08:23:00.000-08:00

yea TODAY NO MORE PAPERS LIAO! haha
OOP feel so scare and lim poh seng think i still very good in programming haha. feel so bad to disappoint him.
alright man! gonna get my programming skills back!

haha then go play basketball with class guys. haha they're good man haha. darren, edwin, bernard, yi xiang, weilun, eilly & hui hui(know her today only) they're all very good haha. don't look down on the girls man haha. they're pro!!!

after that went to town to find the primary class guys. on the way there met up with kok leng and nel to go there together. then we stopped at centerepoint to buy books. but in the end we brough no books then go makan mac donalds haha. didn't eat finish again.

then rushed to find the guys haha thought i'm not late but still rust down haha don't like to be late >.< then saw ah bui and kajiao him all the way till the rest reach. the come in a way of , zhi peng & jokhie then jiaxing & liying then waited for very long and finally saw kuan leng out of the mrt startion haha.junjie reached first then joanne reached shortly after. judy and lijun came not long after. ting en & i suddenly felt that kokleong should come and we psychoed him till he decided to drag his butt out haha.

then waited for him till 8 + and went to makan. took us long enough to find the location to eat (thai express) haha 8 of us ate and i'm forced to eat with them -.- haha nvm at least everyone had fun except kuanleng(p.s. hey next time come out lets have more fun) then we went to take photos haha then after that go homeliao haha.

2007-12-12T07:22:00.000-08:00

ok this post is kuan leng ask me to post de

muahahaha

muahahaha

muahahah

posted

2007-12-10T01:40:00.000-08:00

word of god:

to some i give leadership
and to some i give strength
and to some i give talents
but to none i gave nothing

you do not need to show them to the world
but use them to help the world
for isn't it good enough as i know that you've been using them for the great glory?

2007-12-06T18:35:00.000-08:00

Praise You In This Storm by Casting Crowns

i was sure by now
That You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say Amen,
and it's still raining

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
I'm with you
And as You mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

I'll praise You in this storm
And I will life my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
Every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry
You raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can't find You

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
I'm with youAnd as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away
I lift my eyes unto the hills

Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth